as part of a bid to regain some semblance of my writing skills which i have care-free-ly tossed out the airplan window en route to tokyo a long time back, i am going to start blabbering verbose nonsense on my rather dilapidated blog.
life's been good to me, as long as I am still breathing. currently looking for a job after being turned down by two consulting companies. Though bummed out by the rejection, I am pretty glad I got the opportunities to go through the interview processes thanks to my dear friend Ms. Wen. My regret in this case is to have wasted her efforts thus far. Sorry Ms. Wen.
Other than that, am actively pursuing public service. Am looking at a few ministries and agencies. I would love to take a little bit more time as I still have some other life goals to attain. However, I keep feeling the pressure of society, in the form of genuinely-concerned friends who inquire about my work life. It seems that NEET-ing (Not in Employment, Education or Training) is the activity engaged by the scum that grows underneath of toilet seats left uncleaned for years in shopping centre relics left from the 1970s. The pressure to make money. The pressure to be engaged in productive activity. The pressure to stop sucking out the life of my parents retirement savings. The pressure when invited to high class restaurants by employed friends, only to be embarrassed by the background differences in social status as the scum that is... you get the picture. =)
Not that its a bad thing. Frankly, I feel that it is a rather interesting sensation, coming close to those considered as "in-transition workers." I am just imagining the out of job workers, the other job-seekers, or those who are hungry for work but are denied opportunities for whatever reasons. Is this me placing myself in the bottom of the social hierarchy of our modern society? Is this universal across the world? Is there any significance that can be understood from this? If there is one thing I do feel, is the sort of societal expectation of its people to be making money. And the things I see, one being the raised eyebrows when I tell others that I'm "unemployed."
Well, perhaps again, I am just imagining things. What I should do now, is to take good care of my health and head out for a swim.
More opining of a restless, stress-out brain of a NEETing scum to come soon. Hopefully with good news about my job hunting.
Been there, done that, messed around I'm having fun, don't put me down I'll never let you sweep me off my feet I won't let you in again The messages I've tried to send My information's just not goin in Burning bridges, shore to shore I break away from something more I'm not to, not to love until it's cheap Been there, done that, messed around I'm having fun, don't put me down I'll never let you sweep me off my feet
Chorus This time baby I'll be Bulletproof (repeat)
I won't let you turn around, I'll tell you now, I'm much too proud To walk away from something when it's dead Do do do your dirty worst Come out to play when you are hurt There's certain things that should be Left unsaid Tick tick tick tick on the watch Life's too short for me to stop Oh baby, your time is running out I won't let you turn around And tell me now, I'm much too proud All you do is fill be up with doubt
Chorus This time baby I'll be Bulletproof (repeat)
This time, I'll be Bulletproof (repeat)
Chorus This time baby I'll be Bulletproof (repeat) This time baby, this time baby This time baby, this time This time baby, this time baby Bulletproof
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle Life is a maze and love is a riddle I don't know where to go, can't do it alone I've tried and I don't know why
Slow it down, make it stop or else my heart is going to pop 'Cause it's too much, yeah it's a lot to be something I'm not I'm a fool out of love 'cause I just can't get enough
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle Life is a maze and love is a riddle I don't know where to go, can't do it alone I've tried and I don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment I'm so scared but I don't show it I can't figure it out, it's bringing me down I know I've got to let it go and just enjoy the show
The sun is hot in the sky just like a giant spotlight The people follow the signs and synchronize in time It's a joke nobody knows, they've got a ticket to the show
Yeah, I'm just a little bit caught in the middle Life is a maze and love is a riddle I don't know where to go, can't do it alone I've tried and I don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment I'm so scared but I don't show it I can't figure it out, it's bringing me down I know I've got to let it go and just enjoy the show Just enjoy the show
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle Life is a maze and love is a riddle I don't know where to go, can't do it alone I've tried and I don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment I'm so scared but I don't show it I can't figure it out, it's bringing me down I know I've got to let it go and just enjoy the show Just enjoy the show, just enjoy the show
I want my money back, I want my money back I want my money back, just enjoy the show I want my money back, I want my money back I want my money back, just enjoy the show
This one goes out to the man who mines for miracles This one goes out to the ones in need This one goes out to the sinner and the cynical This ain't about no apology
This road was paved by the hopeless and the hungry This road was paved by the winds of change Walking beside the guilty and the innocent How will you raise your hand when they call your name?
Yeah, yeah, yeah
We weren't born to follow Come on and get up off your knees When life is a bitter pill to swallow You gotta hold on to what you believe
Believe that the sun will shine tomorrow And that your saints and sinners bleed We weren't born to follow You gotta stand up for what you believe
Let me hear you say yeah, yeah, yeah, oh yeah
This one's about anyone who does it differently This one's about the one who cusses and spits This ain't about our livin' in a fantasy This ain't about givin' up or givin' in
Yeah, yeah, yeah
We weren't born to follow Come on and get up off your knees When life is a bitter pill to swallow You gotta hold on to what you believe
Believe that the sun will shine tomorrow And that your saints and sinners bleed We weren't born to follow You gotta stand up for what you believe
Let me hear you say yeah, yeah, yeah, oh yeah Let me hear you say yeah, yeah, yeah, oh yeah
We weren't born to follow Come on and get up off your knees When life is a bitter pill to swallow You gotta hold on to what you believe
Believe that the sun will shine tomorrow And that your saints and sinners bleed We weren't born to follow You gotta stand up for what you believe
Let me hear you say yeah, yeah, yeah, oh yeah Let me hear you say yeah, yeah, yeah, oh yeah
We weren't born to follow, oh yeah (Yeah, yeah, yeah, oh yeah) We weren't born to follow, oh yeah (Yeah, yeah, yeah, oh yeah)
I'm Not Surprised Not Everything Lasts I've Broken My Heart So Many Times, I Stop Keeping Track. Talk Myself In I Talk Myself Out I Get All Worked Up And Then I Let Myself Down.
I Tried So Very Hard Not To Loose It I Came Up With A Million Excuses I Thought I Thought Of Every Possibility
And I Know Someday That It'll All Turn Out You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out And I Promise You Kid That I'll Give So Much More Than I Get I Just Haven't Met You Yet
Mmmmm ....
I Might Have To Wait I'll Never Give Up I Guess It's Half Timing And The Other Half's Luck Wherever You Are Whenever It's Right You Come Out Of Nowhere And Into My Life
And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing And Baby Your Love Is Gonna Change Me And Now I Can See Every Possibility
Mmmmm ......
And Somehow I Know That It Will All Turn Out And You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out And I Promise You Kid I'll Give So Much More Than I Get I Just Haven't Met You Yet
They Say All's Fair And In Love And War But I Won't Need To Fight It We'll Get It Right And We'll Be United
And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing And Being In Your Life Is Gonna Change Me And Now I Can See Every Single Possibility
Mmmm .....
And Someday I Know It'll All Turn Out And I'll Work To Work It Out Promise You Kid I'll Give More Than I Get Than I Get Than I Get Than I Get
Oh You Know It'll All Turn Out And You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out And I Promise You Kid To Give So Much More Than I Get Yeah I Just Haven't Met You Yet
I Just Haven't Met You Yet Oh Promise You Kid To Give So Much More Than I Get
I Said Love Love Love Love Love Love Love ..... I Just Haven't Met You Yet Love Love Love ..... I Just Haven't Met You Yet
Let it all out, Let it all out 強がらなくていいんだね Tsuyogaranakute iin da ne 誰かが描いてった 壁の落書きの花が揺れる Dareka ga kaitetta kabe no rakugaki no hana ga yureru
自分らしさなんて 誰も分からないよ Jibunrashisa nante dare mo wakaranai yo 長い長い道の途中で 失くしたり拾ったり Nagai nagai michi no tochuu de nakushitari hirottari 急に寂しくなって 泣いちゃう日もあるけど oh...oh... Kyuu ni samishiku natte naichau hi mo aru kedo
涙も痛みも星に変えよう Namida mo itami mo hoshi ni kaeyou 明日を照らす灯りをともそう Ashita wo terasu akari wo tomosou 小さく迷っても ふたりで作ろう Chiisaku mayotte mo futari de tsukurou 星屑を 強く光る永遠を探そう Hoshikuzu wo tsuyoku hikaru eien wo sagasou
Let it all out, Let it all out 足りないことだらけだよね Tarinai koto darake da yo n 足りなくていいんだね だから君と出逢えたんだ oh... Tarinakute iin da ne dakara kimi to deaetan da
明日が何なのか それが知りたくて "Tashika" ga nan na no ka sore ga shiritakute 小さなナイフを 靴下に隠してた Chiisana NAIFU wo kutsushita ni kakushiteta 強がってついた 嘘のほうがずっと痛かった Tsuyogatte tsuita uso no hou ga zutto itakatta
本当は怖いよ だけど生きていく Hontou wa kowai yo dakedo ikiteku 笑顔の意味を 風を奏でてく Egao no kimi wo kaze ga nadeteku 小さな手をかざして ふたりで作ろう Chiisana te kazashite futari de tsukurou 星屑を 強く光る永遠を探そう Hoshikuzu wo tsuyoku hikaru eien wo sagasou
正しいことが間違ってたらどうすればいい？ Tadashii koto ga machigattetara dousureba ii? 悲しいことが正しかったら受け入れるだけ Kanashii koto ga tadashikattara ukeireru dake? 失くしたと思ってた でも君が知ってた Nakushita to omotteta demo kimi ga shitteta 君がいて本当に良かった Kimi ga ite hontou ni yokatta
涙も痛みも星に変えよう Namida mo itami mo hoshi ni kaeyou 明日を照らす明かりを灯そう Ashita wo terasu akari wo tomosou 小さな手かざして ふたりで作ろう Chiisana te kazashite futari de tsukurou 星屑を 強く光る永遠を・・・ Hoshikuzu wo tsuyoku hikaru eien wo...
さよなら いつかは来るかもしれない Sayonara itsuka wa kuru kamo shirenai 季節はそれでも巡り巡ってく Kisetsu wa soredemo meguri megutteku 小さく迷っても 歩いてく 君と歩いてく Chiisaku mayottemo aruiteku それだけは変わらないでいようね Kimi to aruiteku sore dake wa kawaranaideiyou ne
Let it all out, Let it all out It's okay pretending to be tough The scribbled flowers someone painted on the wall tremble
No one knows their own way of being You lose it and find it during the long long path on your way Suddenly I feel lonely There's also days in which I'd burst into tears, but...
Let's transform pain and tears into stars Let's turn on the light that will illuminate the future Let's hold hands together to create stardust Let's search for the eternity that will shine powerfully
Farewell, perhaps it'll come someday Seasons bounce around from one place to the next, nevertheless...
Despite losing the way a bit I'm walking, I'm walking with you Let's not change just that
You're on the phone with your girlfriend, she's upset She's going off about something that you said 'Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do
I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like And she'll never know your story like I do
But she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find That what you're looking for has been here the whole time
If you could see that I'm the one who understands you Been here all along, so why can't you see? You, you belong with me, you belong with me
Walking the streets with you and your worn-out jeans I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself Hey, isn't this easy?
And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down You say you're fine, I know you better than that Hey, what ya doing with a girl like that?
She wears high heels, I wear sneakers She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find That what you're looking for has been here the whole time
If you could see that I'm the one who understands you Been here all along, so why can't you see? You belong with me
Standing by and waiting at your back door All this time how could you not know? Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me
Oh, I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're 'bout to cry And I know your favorite songs and you tell me 'bout your dreams Think I know where you belong, think I know it's with me
Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you? Been here all along, so why can't you see? You belong with me
Standing by and waiting at your back door All this time, how could you not know? Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me
You belong with me Have you ever thought just maybe You belong with me? You belong with me
How tired I am of this unbearable distance between us. How I long for the toll of the recess bell. Have you forgotten me, grown mindless of me? Tell me I am not writing into an abyss, Or that is what will become of my heart
the sun is peeking through the Austrian clouds this cool and getting colder autumn Tuesday. And a musing has come over me and persuaded me to drop by and breathe a little life of verbosity into my otherwise musical blog.
Its been 6 weeks here in Graz and I am already halfway through the duration of my project. For the still unfamiliar, I am here to educate about global issues, namely about poverty to high school children in various high schools in and around Graz. For the still unfamiliar, Graz is the second biggest city after Vienna in Austria. And is the birthplace of Arnold Swazcheneggar. Actually, he was born just outside of Graz. But Graz has claimed him to be their own child. Like how Vienna has done. And now California.
Teaching has always been rather fun for me. Not for the fact that I usually speak in a matter-of-fact tone (as if I know everything, when I just pretend i do), if i do speak at all, but rather I (still) believe that education is the first step to solving global problems. However, I do continue to feel rather unqualified to teach about poverty to children so accustomed to affluence and wealth (as I have). However I always justify that the poor can't travel halfway across the world to tell of their plight, so someone has to speak on their behalf. Another one of my inner dialogues arguing with one another.
On political issues, I have recently become more aware of immigration issues. Like Singapore, a lot of foreigners travel and try to settle in Austria, for all sorts of reasons. The good thing about the EU, is that the ability travel around is very liberal and free. However, Austria (and Germany) seems to be having some issues with certain groups of a different religion and culture. Some Austrian complain about their reluctance to integrate and adopt local ways of living, but instead ghetto and group themselves and continue to display with varying degrees of pride, their home cultures. And it so happens, that many of them tend to be rather loud and prominent, not just in their looks, but to oomph it up with their clothing and behaviors. To say there is some resentment against these foreigners is to be politically correct in an otherwise 'neutral' and 'developed first world country.' Sounds like Singapore? It does so to me.
So is what is happening here in Austria going to be played out in Singapore? At the current rate (or at least from the reports Wilson has kindly been sending me), it does seem so. Singapore, already crowded, is getting more crowded. And by people who are less likely to integrate as our forefathers have.
But the good thing is that, I think Singaporeans, as opposed to Austrians are more tolerant and more exposed to the effects of globalization and internationalization. Many of the children I have talked to thinks that all Chinese eat dogs. I don't blame them really, since the social and personal value of dogs as pets seem to take higher standing than most other issues. (But then again, a few Singaporeans think there are kangeroos in Austria.)
So coming back to the immigration issue in Singapore. What sort of effects would we incur if the policy of flooding our shores with foreign talents continue? Just wondering we can predict any parallelisms with what is happening here with whats is happening there.
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An example of integrity and excellence.
A man of thought and action.
A boy of passion and humour.
A father, a son, a brother, a husband.
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