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I like this!


ganbatene, baka inu
One reason why im still around.






My favourite pic.


ganbatene, baka inu
oh. the drama. the performance. the irony.

that one person. that one different person. that one special person you have noticed for a while. the way she moves. the way she smiles. the way she waves. every detail registered, every colour washed, every number remembered.

she was there at the other end during lecture copying notes as you typed yours. she was there turning the corner at the end of the corridor just as you turned in. she was there chatting with her friends on the stairs as you ran down to meet yours for lunch at the canteen.

she's not one of them. she's different.

so when you had the chance, you took it. you saw it was a leap of faith. you thought it was god's divine will. you believed it was love.

and then. in a sudden twist of fate. things was horribly wrong. going awry. then, done.

she left you. walked out. refused to speak.

that move, that smile, that wave. now when you looked at her. they are different. meant something different. signified a break from the past.

yet, yet, yet, when strangers moved, when your friend smile, when a sister waved, you see in them, that same meaning from the distant past.

you know its different, but its the same. yet, its different.

every lecture, the seat she sat. every corridor, the turn she made. every stairs, the voice she resonated. their emptiness fills you with pleasurable memories with painful stabs. the heart sinks, falters, feels like, its dying.

its the same old story you've heard before. its the same old love song you've hummed. its the same old entry you've read off a blog. only. now, the main lead, is you.

Sun Yan Zi's Wo Bu Nan Guo. Liang Jing Ru's Ke Xi Bu Shi Ni. Ah Mei's Wo Yao Kuai Le.
Romeo and Juliet, Elizabeth and Darcy, You and Her.

Its about one year on. its so so so so so fast, yet it went by sooooo slowly. Since the time we met, since the time i remembered, since the time i took that chance, since that time things were done, since that time everything reminded me of you. since that time.

one year on. i've had good friends. i've had help. i've had God. I've had me.

and i guess, im still not over you. i have never been over you. i may never get over you. But, i know, i've moved on.

***

this whim-of-the-moment entry is for a friend. Just wanna tell you, Things do change for the better and that Im here for ya.
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Sava is over. another ride. what a ride.

throughout the whole race, the issue of passion, the questions of why are you here, what do you fight for, keep coming up.

i din join db for anyone. i din know what it entailed. all i knew, was one the first day of training. i almost fainted due to the sheer exhaustion, the extreme strain. i was lying down face up to the sky and all was white. i thought i was going to die. but i din. i breathed. i got up. i smiled. everything cleared up. in many ways, i found life. i went through a valley of death, and thought i was near my demise. but i got up, alive and breathing. it may sound a little extreme. but this was what went through my head. biblically, it was resurrection. in a way, db gave me life. and i found a way of life in db.

training and competition. they have been almost synonymous, in the sense, that i simply give it my all. i do what it takes to do my all. i push and push. until i feel like dying. until i hyperventilate. until tears well in my eyes. until i only wanted to collapse. then i get up, i breathe deeper, i arise again.

its not about falling. its about getting back up from the fall. its not about giving up. its about coming back again to give it your all.

in db, i feel alive.

***

one of my friends told me once, that he converted, because he lost faith in people. and decided to put his faith in God instead.

indeed, at many times human beings are such capricious beings, such rigid creatures, such narrow minded self-interested beasts.

as such people have never been my own justification to stay or leave. friends are not my reason for being. they are not the reason i am here. they are not the reason why i fight. they are my reason for fighting HARDER. i am not defined by the people around me. though i am shaped by them. i am not what my friends make me to be. i am what i make me to be. however, importantly, my friends give me an added motivation. and some friends give me more motivation than others. i am proud of all of them.

and as such, i am proud of me. cos i put my faith, in me first and foremost, after God of course.

***

victory and defeat are cycles of the same patterns of life, both sides of the same coin. but still simply a coin in my piggy bank of coins. i never take them too lightly, cos its still money. i never take them too seriously, cos its just money.

i love my victories, i hate my defeats. and i need the both of them. both of them to give me ANOTHER reason to stay. to make me want to fight harder.

i love my friends, i love my enemies. and also, i need the both of them. both of them to give me MORE reason to fight. to make me want to learn more.

i hate falling, i love getting back up. and i need the both of them. both of them to make me learn and learn and learn. to make me stronger than yesterday.

and as such. in this way (and of course, this is only ONE way), i am living.
ganbatene, baka inu
a tinge of depression
someone's left
a darkened room
a brighter possibility

a sense of regret
moved on
a presentation due
a new love found

a sensation of wariness
photo's changed
a race to row
a man to meet

may you find who you are looking for
may i discover what i am searching for
ganbatene, baka inu
Super cute! Love really does transcend all sorts of boundaries! now lets all go "Awwwww!!"

It's dove at first sight
It's a tale straight out of Disney – an abandoned baby monkey, close to death, is revived by the love of a bird.

The 12-week-old macaque was rescued on Neilingding Island, in Goangdong Province, China, after being abandoned by his mother.

Taken to an animal hospital, he was weaned back to physical health but still showed little appetite for life.

It was not until a fellow patient, a white pigeon, took him under her wing and showed him love and affection that he perked up.

Now the two are inseparable, say staff.

They are not the first odd couple. In March, we told how a tiger cub in China was being raised by a sow along with her piglets because his mother didn't know how to feed him.

And in 2005 Mi-Lu the baby deer became best friends with lurcher Geoffrey at the Knowsley Animal Park, in Merseyside, after being rejected by her mother.

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The 29 Healthiest Foods on the Planet


The following is a "healthy food hot list" consisting of the 29 food that will give you the biggest nutritional bang for you caloric buck, as well as decrease your risk for deadly illnesses like cancer, diabetes and heart disease. Along with each description is a suggestion as to how to incorporate these power-foods into your diet.

FRUITS

01. Apricots
The Power: Beta-carotene, which helps prevent free-radical damage and protect the eyes. The body also turns beta-carotene into vitamin A, which may help ward off some cancers, especially of the skin. One apricot has 17 calories, 0 fat, 1 gram of fiber. Snacks on them dried, or if you prefer fresh, buy when still firm; once they soften, they lose nutrients.

02. Avocados
The Power: Oleic acid, an unsaturated fat that helps lower overall cholesterol and raise levels of HDL, plus a good dose of fiber. One slice has 81 calories, 8 grams of fat and 3 grams of fiber. Try a few slices instead of mayonnaise to dress up your next burger.

03. Raspberries
The Power: Ellagic acid, which helps stall cancer-cell growth. These berries are also packed with vitamin C and are high in fiber, which helps prevent high cholesterol and heart disease. A cup has only 60 calories, 1 gram of fat and 8 grams of fiber. Top plain low-fat yogurt or oatmeal (another high fiber food) with fresh berries.

04. Mango
The Power: A medium mango packs 57mg of vitamin C, almost your whole-recommended daily dose. This antioxidant helps prevent arthritis and boosts wound healing and your immune system. Mangoes also boast more than 8,000 IU of vitamin A (as beta-carotene). One mango has 135 calories, 1 gram of fat and 4 grams of fiber. Cut on up and serve it over leafy greens. Bonus: Your salad will taste like dessert!

05. Cantaloupe
The Power: Vitamin C (117mg in half a melon, almost twice the recommended daily dose) and beta-carotene - both powerful antioxidants that help protect cells from free-radical damage. Plus, half a melon has 853mg of potassium - almost twice as much as a banana, which helps lower blood pressure. Half a melon has 97 calories, 1 gram of fat and 2 grams of fiber. Cut into cubes and freeze, then blend into an icy smoothie.

06. Cranberry Juice
The Power: Helps fight bladder infections by preventing harmful bacteria from growing. A cup has 144 calories, 0 grams of fat and 0 fiber. Buy 100 percent juice concentrate and use it to spice up your daily H20 without adding sugar.

07. Tomato
The Power: Lycopene, one of the strongest carotenoids, acts as an antioxidant. Research shows that tomatoes may cut the risk of bladder, stomach and colon cancers in half if eaten daily. A tomato has 26 calories, 0 fat and 1 gram of fiber. Drizzle fresh slices with olive oil, because lycopene is best absorbed when eaten with a little fat.

08. Raisins
The Power: These little gems are a great source of iron, which helps the blood transport oxygen and which many women are short on. A half-cup has 218 calories, 0 fat and 3 grams of fiber. Sprinkle raisins on your morning oatmeal or bran cereal - women, consider this especially during your period.

09. Figs
The Power: A good source of potassium and fiber, figs also contain vitamin B6, which is responsible for producing mood-boosting serotonin, lowering cholesterol and preventing water retention. The Pill depletes B6, so if you use this method of birth control, make sure to get extra B6 in your diet. One fig has 37 to 48 calories, 0 fat and 2 grams of fiber. (Cookie lovers - fig bars have around 56 calories, 1 gram of fat and 1 gram of fiber per cookie). Fresh figs are delicious simmered alongside a pork tenderloin and the dried variety make a great portable gym snack.

10. Lemons/Limes
The Power: Limonene, furocoumarins and vitamin C, all of which help prevent cancer. A wedge has 2 calories, 0 fat and 0 fiber. Buy a few of each and squeeze over salads, fish, beans and vegetables for fat free flavor.



VEGETABLES

11. Onions
The Power: Quercetin is one of the most powerful flavonoids (natural plant antioxidants). Studies show it helps protect against cancer. A cup (chopped) has 61 calories, 0 fat and 3 grams of fiber. Chop onions for the maximum phytonutrient boost, or if you hate to cry, roast them with a little olive oil and serve with rice or other vegetables.

12. Artichokes
The Power: These odd-looking vegetables contain silymarin, an antioxidant that helps prevent skin cancer, plus fiber to help control cholesterol. One medium artichoke has 60 calories, 0 fat and 7 grams of fiber. Steam over boiling water for 30 to 40 minutes. Squeeze lemon juice on top, then pluck the leaves off with your fingers and use your teeth to scrape off the rich-tasting skin. When you get to the heart, you have found the best part!

13. Ginger
The Power: Gingerols may help reduce queasiness; other compounds may help ward off migraines and arthritis pain by blocking inflammation-causing prostaglandins. A teaspoon of fresh gingerroot has only 1 calorie, 0 fat and 0 fiber. Peel the tough brown skin and slice or grate into a stir-fry.

14. Broccoli
The Power: Indole-3-carbinol and sulforaphane, which help protect against breast cancer. Broccoli also has lots of vitamin C and beta-carotene. One cup (chopped) has 25 calories, 0 fat and 3 grams of fiber. Don't overcook broccoli - instead, microwave or steam lightly to preserve phytonutrients. Squeeze fresh lemon on top for a zesty and taste, added nutrients and some vitamin C.

15. Spinach
The Power: Lutein and zeaxanthin, carotenoids that help fend off macular degeneration, a major cause of blindness in older people. Plus, studies show this green fountain of youth may help reverse some signs of aging. One cup has 7 calories, 0 fat and 1 gram of fiber. Add raw leaves to a salad or sauté with a little olive oil and garlic.

16. Bok Choy (Chinese cabbage)
The Power: Brassinin, which some research suggests may help prevent breast tumors, plus indoles and isothiocyanates, which lower levels of estrogen, make this vegetable a double-barreled weapon against breast cancer. A cup will also give you 158mg of calcium (16 percent of your daily recommended requirement) to help beat osteoporosis. A cup (cooked) has 20 calories, 0 fat and 3 grams of fiber. Find it in your grocer's produce section or an Asian market. Slice the greens and juicy white stalks, then saute like spinach or toss into a stir-fry just before serving.

17. Squash (Butternut, Pumpkin, Acorn)
The Power: Winter squash has huge amounts of vitamin C and beta-carotene, which may help protect against endometrial cancer. One cup (cooked) has 80 calories, 1 gram of fat and 6 grams of fiber. Cut on in half, scoop out the seeds and bake or microwave until soft, then dust with cinnamon.

18. Watercress and Arugula
The Power: Phenethyl isothiocyanate, which, along with beta-carotene and vitamins C and E, may help keep cancer cells at bay. One cup has around 4 calories, 0 fat and 1 gram of fiber. Do not cook these leafy greens; instead, use them to garnish a sandwich or add a pungent, peppery taste to salad.

19. Garlic
The Power: The sulfur compounds that give garlic its pungent flavor can also lower LDL ("bad") cholesterol, lower blood pressure and even reduce your risk of stomach and colon cancer. A clove has 4 calories, 0 fat and 0 fiber. Bake a whole head for 15 to 20 minutes, until soft and sweet and spread on bread instead of butter.



GRAINS/BEANS/NUTS

20. Quinoa
The Power: A half cup of cooked quinoa has 5 grams of protein, more than any other grain, plus iron, riboflavin and magnesium. A half-cup has 318 calories, 5 grams of fat and 5 grams of fiber. Add to soup for a protein boost. Rinse first, or it will taste bitter.

21. Wheat Germ
The Power: A tablespoon gives you about 7 percent of your daily magnesium, which helps prevent muscle cramps; it is also a good source of vitamin E. One tablespoon has 27 calories, 1 gram of fat and 1 gram of fiber. Sprinkle some over yogurt, fruit or cereal.

22. Lentils
The Power: Isoflavones, which may inhibit estrogen-promoted breast cancers, plus fiber for heart health and an impressive 9 grams of protein per half cup. A half-cup (cooked) has 115 calories, 0 fat and 8 grams of fiber. Isoflavones hold up through processing, so buy lentils canned, dried or already in soup. Take them to work, and you will have a protein packed lunch.

23. Peanuts
The Power: Studies show that peanuts or other nuts (which contain mostly unsaturated "good" fat) can lower your heart-disease risk by over 20 percent. One ounce has 166 calories, 14 grams of fat and 2 grams of fiber. Keep a packet in your briefcase, gym bag or purse for a protein-packed post-workout nosh or an afternoon pick me up that will satisfy you until supper, or chop a few into a stir-fry for a Thai accent. See also: The Nut Case

24. Pinto Beans
The Power: A half cup has more than 25 percent of your daily requirement of folate, which helps protect against heart disease and reduces the risk of birth defects. A half-cup (canned) has 103 calories, 1 gram of fat and 6 grams of fiber. Drain a can, rinse and toss into a pot of vegetarian chili.

Low fat Yogurt
25. The Power: Bacteria in active-culture yogurt helps prevent yeast infections; calcium strengthens bones. A cup has 155 calories, 4 grams of fat, 0 grams of fiber. Get the plain kind and mix in your own fruit to keep calories and sugar down. If you are lactose intolerant, never fear - yogurt should not bother your tummy.

26. Skim Milk
The Power: Riboflavin (a.k.a. vitamin B2) is important for good vision and along with vitamin A might help improve eczema and allergies. Plus, you get calcium and vitamin D, too. One cup has 86 calories, 0 fat and 0 fiber. If you are used to high fat milk, don't go cold turkey; instead, mix the two together at first. Trust this fact: In a week or two you won't miss it!



SEAFOOD

27. Shellfish (Clams, Mussels)
The Power: Vitamin B12 to support nerve and brain function, plus iron and hard-to-get minerals like magnesium and potassium. Three ounces has 126 to 146 calories, 2 to 4 grams of fat and 0 fiber. Try a bowl of tomato-based (and low fat) Manhattan clam chowder.

28. Salmon
The Power: Cold-water fish like salmon, mackerel and tuna are the best sources of omega-3 fatty acids, which help reduce the risk of cardiac disease. A 3-ounce portion (cooked) has 127 calories, 4 grams of fat, 0 fiber. Brush fillets with ginger-soy marinade and grill or broil until fish flakes easily with a fork.

29. Crab
The Power: A great source of vitamin B12 and immunity-boosting zinc. A 3-ounce portion has 84 calories, 1 gram of fat, 0 fiber. The "crab" in sushi is usually made from fish; buy it canned instead and make your own crab cakes. See also: Fish and Seafood Recipes

http://www.bellybytes.com/articles/29foods.shtml
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Look who's back from one of her another round-the-world tours!

oh gosh! two super sexy siblings with funky hair! hers nicer though. got colour one! haha!

welcome back! now study! whahaha!

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