oh. the drama. the performance. the irony.
that one person. that one different person. that one special person you have noticed for a while. the way she moves. the way she smiles. the way she waves. every detail registered, every colour washed, every number remembered.
she was there at the other end during lecture copying notes as you typed yours. she was there turning the corner at the end of the corridor just as you turned in. she was there chatting with her friends on the stairs as you ran down to meet yours for lunch at the canteen.
she's not one of them. she's different.
so when you had the chance, you took it. you saw it was a leap of faith. you thought it was god's divine will. you believed it was love.
and then. in a sudden twist of fate. things was horribly wrong. going awry. then, done.
she left you. walked out. refused to speak.
that move, that smile, that wave. now when you looked at her. they are different. meant something different. signified a break from the past.
yet, yet, yet, when strangers moved, when your friend smile, when a sister waved, you see in them, that same meaning from the distant past.
you know its different, but its the same. yet, its different.
every lecture, the seat she sat. every corridor, the turn she made. every stairs, the voice she resonated. their emptiness fills you with pleasurable memories with painful stabs. the heart sinks, falters, feels like, its dying.
its the same old story you've heard before. its the same old love song you've hummed. its the same old entry you've read off a blog. only. now, the main lead, is you.
Sun Yan Zi's Wo Bu Nan Guo. Liang Jing Ru's Ke Xi Bu Shi Ni. Ah Mei's Wo Yao Kuai Le.
Romeo and Juliet, Elizabeth and Darcy, You and Her.
Its about one year on. its so so so so so fast, yet it went by sooooo slowly. Since the time we met, since the time i remembered, since the time i took that chance, since that time things were done, since that time everything reminded me of you. since that time.
one year on. i've had good friends. i've had help. i've had God. I've had me.
and i guess, im still not over you. i have never been over you. i may never get over you. But, i know, i've moved on.
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this whim-of-the-moment entry is for a friend. Just wanna tell you, Things do change for the better and that Im here for ya.
that one person. that one different person. that one special person you have noticed for a while. the way she moves. the way she smiles. the way she waves. every detail registered, every colour washed, every number remembered.
she was there at the other end during lecture copying notes as you typed yours. she was there turning the corner at the end of the corridor just as you turned in. she was there chatting with her friends on the stairs as you ran down to meet yours for lunch at the canteen.
she's not one of them. she's different.
so when you had the chance, you took it. you saw it was a leap of faith. you thought it was god's divine will. you believed it was love.
and then. in a sudden twist of fate. things was horribly wrong. going awry. then, done.
she left you. walked out. refused to speak.
that move, that smile, that wave. now when you looked at her. they are different. meant something different. signified a break from the past.
yet, yet, yet, when strangers moved, when your friend smile, when a sister waved, you see in them, that same meaning from the distant past.
you know its different, but its the same. yet, its different.
every lecture, the seat she sat. every corridor, the turn she made. every stairs, the voice she resonated. their emptiness fills you with pleasurable memories with painful stabs. the heart sinks, falters, feels like, its dying.
its the same old story you've heard before. its the same old love song you've hummed. its the same old entry you've read off a blog. only. now, the main lead, is you.
Sun Yan Zi's Wo Bu Nan Guo. Liang Jing Ru's Ke Xi Bu Shi Ni. Ah Mei's Wo Yao Kuai Le.
Romeo and Juliet, Elizabeth and Darcy, You and Her.
Its about one year on. its so so so so so fast, yet it went by sooooo slowly. Since the time we met, since the time i remembered, since the time i took that chance, since that time things were done, since that time everything reminded me of you. since that time.
one year on. i've had good friends. i've had help. i've had God. I've had me.
and i guess, im still not over you. i have never been over you. i may never get over you. But, i know, i've moved on.
***
this whim-of-the-moment entry is for a friend. Just wanna tell you, Things do change for the better and that Im here for ya.
i didn't see the title til i decided to leave a comment.
that's what i used to think she was.
and u left out the part abt how everytime u see her again now, yr heart just drops a little bit more.
but we'll both move on .
one day. it may take years. it may take many others before it happens, but i guess at the end of the day, it will happen.
and thanx. for being there.
here's to the future.
:)