its about the end of the second week of the so called holidays. dun really remember having been in at home for a straight 24 hours... everyday so far since the last paper has been filled with training and extra gym or running sessions.

does life suck? hm. i am not complaining yet.

yesterday, met my jc classmates for dinner. how interesting that they remembered that i remarked "see you guys at the end of the sem." and so we did. its sad. cos it only served to remind me that i have been cooped up with my so called life all by my own. but its sadder in a sense, that they (but not only them, even the friends i see in school) , do not really know the details of my life. i seem to have attained the labels of "nerd", "mugger", "the guy at the law corridor." sooner or later, my favourite bench is going to have my named carved into it to unofficially declare it my turf. still, the fact that i am only known and will only be remembered by these labels, serves to show how much i have lost contact with the world.

anyway, we had so much fun yesterday. as usual, when benedict quah and mark lin are in the house, they never fail to bring the roof down. or rather, they never fail to make us laugh so much and so hard, that our laughter brings the roof down. they are kooky, and comedic and humourous. half the time we were laughing at what they said. half the time we were simply laughing at them.

after the filling dinner at sizzlers, ben, mark and i went to JW's house to play mahjong. it was a very last minute decision. i had training the next day, and was declining the offer. but in the end, my weak will and bare resolve crumbled under peer pressure. and went with them anyway... sigh. anyway, ben turned out to be the biggest winner, followed by JW, me and mark. me, despite only having one big win, lost quite a bit of money. ah well...

thanks mark, for accomodating me in his humble abode. it was lucky for me because his house was only a few bus stops away from the kallang river. i had sufficient sleep in his sister's bed (who luckily was in australia). yup yup.

it was the first time at his house. and he pointed me the houses of the infamous joo chiat war, whereby two neighbours are currently at each others' throats over dunno what matter. and he was telling me how one is shining a huge torch light into the enemy's house, who retaliated by blocking the bright light with a mirror. in another instance, they were both filming each other's property, lest either makes his killing move. sigh. the paranoia, the insanity, the sheer stupidity. seriously guys, there are people dying out there, and two rich people are wasting their time watching each others' ill intent.

well, while they have their own personal issues with each other. i cant help feeling that me and my pals in db are having personal issues of our own. whether it is within ourselves (demons, fats, paddles, work, waitering), or with each other (seniors and juniors, a place in the boat, room mates), i do hope they will make us each better people, and make all of us, a better team. goodness know how.

had a few conversations on what a team is. shall reserve my thoughts so far, cos they are super incoherent. or rather, i am just too tired to think about them now.

things are going quite fine so far... although i still wish i had more time because i am not doing a few things i set out to accomplish. my room is still in a mess, and i still have yet to read a book, and i still need to do more training. ah well. life may suck. but it aint sucking that bad.

in fact, life is going just fine.