hey peepz! i am back for a while!
i know i should be studying and all. so i am kind of a little stressed and worried. acutally am just chilling for a while before i head on for a little nap before going for a little training before i come back really late and try to hit the books before the z monster tries to hit me.
ah well.
deadlines are finally here again. the second half of the semester is going to fly by so faster than a 200metre sava sprint race which we will be taking part next weekend! and so 3 term papers, 2 response papers, 1 presentation, 1 group project, 1 more mid term test. ooo... and 8 more weeks before the exams launch their stress attacks. ooo... i so feel another semester of hard hitting action. heh heh. this sem i am trying to aim high, so that when i miss, i can land somewhere soft. but not before i work hard. stress stress stress. and last night, to my biggest horror, i discoverd not 1 or 2 or 3 pimples but 5!!! argh!!!! 2 huge ones one both sides of my face (how symmetrical) and 3 small ones which i pinched them out today! i just love seeing those white-yellow bits of ugly mush pop out of their entrenched skin. and i would always think i hear the "pop" sound! argh! makes my skin crawl with a little perverse, fetish excitment. muahahah!!!
anyway, i am supposed to go to tianjing with the team. but in the end, its been cancelled. only the ladies team is going. ah well. the guys are pretty upset and disappointed really. but ah well. you go girls! do us proud! bring something back! in the end, we are all still TeamNUS and we support each other yar! wondering if we should go and send the team off. but it would be at midnight, and i have tonnes of work to do. bleah. i am sure the girls will enjoy themselves! and sure to take lots of pictures! haha.
ah well, and so sava sprint is coming in 2 weeks. this will be our first competition since the PM cup, and will consist of an entirely brand new team configuration, whether its in the 500 or 200 or mixed or whatever. i think its going to set some tone for us for the rest of the year. i have some hopes and expectations. really wondering how it will turn out. nonetheless, i kind of love competitions. really really. haha! and i wonder. cos everytime before any race, i would feel soooo nervous. i remember the ivp finals last year, my hands were quivering just before they said "go!" i wonder i have overcome this jittery tensions in me. i just love the end of it though, the thought that i have put in all my best in a certain set, put in my focus, my attention, my concentration, my heart, mind and soul. and whatever the result, i just want to feel that i have not let myself and my brothers down. but of course, there will be accompanying feelings of defeat or triumph, but for me they are pretty secondary. cos they are just fleeing emotions. all i really want to feel, is just to feel alive.
the juniors are really interesting. in them i see some of us when we first came in. not that i am so experienced. they seem to be bouncing with so much optimism, so much expectations. and i look at my ragged and bedrangled body and expressions, and wonder if i have grown old already. sometimes i wake up from bed in the middle of the night in shock at the re-discovery that i am actually 22 years old. i hope i can re-discover some of that youthful optimism they all have. and i hope they will have a fruitful and eye-opening experience at the sava sprints, whether they are rowing or not, whether they win or not. cos there is really alot more to db than just being in the boat, than just rowing, than just winning. sometimes just simply being there entails alot more about who we are and what life is than what we think it does.
oh. and i want to learn how to dance!!! after watching dance reflections i was so impressed! and especially after seeing our (PQ and i) classmate Liza do her thing on the stage. we were like "woah!" its interesting to see how our impressions about our friends can be enhanced just by seeing how sexy she shakes her ass. haha! sorry liza. but we just want to say "You were damn hot!" makes me want to join dance blast too. the only dance i can do, is nod my head to the beat of trance. and then get a headache. wonder if dance blast have any more free lessons teaching guys with 2 left feat how to dance hip hop. was going to ask a certain someone how to dance. heard he's good at the horizontal salsa. ah well. whatever that means. riiigghhhtt...
beside those above random thoughts. just want to say, i think i am having a better time this sem than the last two sems i have had, for more reasons than one. especially, cos i am staying in the hostel, especially with mel and alex, and in close proximity with people like jason, jiahe, teddy, gm and ms wen. i feel we are having so much fun together. love the alex moments, love the melvin moments, love it when people just drop by and inject more laughter in my life.
and a gentle reminder to all those who read this blog. please, when you see me, please shout my name and say hi! cos really, that would be so cool.
i know i should be studying and all. so i am kind of a little stressed and worried. acutally am just chilling for a while before i head on for a little nap before going for a little training before i come back really late and try to hit the books before the z monster tries to hit me.
ah well.
deadlines are finally here again. the second half of the semester is going to fly by so faster than a 200metre sava sprint race which we will be taking part next weekend! and so 3 term papers, 2 response papers, 1 presentation, 1 group project, 1 more mid term test. ooo... and 8 more weeks before the exams launch their stress attacks. ooo... i so feel another semester of hard hitting action. heh heh. this sem i am trying to aim high, so that when i miss, i can land somewhere soft. but not before i work hard. stress stress stress. and last night, to my biggest horror, i discoverd not 1 or 2 or 3 pimples but 5!!! argh!!!! 2 huge ones one both sides of my face (how symmetrical) and 3 small ones which i pinched them out today! i just love seeing those white-yellow bits of ugly mush pop out of their entrenched skin. and i would always think i hear the "pop" sound! argh! makes my skin crawl with a little perverse, fetish excitment. muahahah!!!
anyway, i am supposed to go to tianjing with the team. but in the end, its been cancelled. only the ladies team is going. ah well. the guys are pretty upset and disappointed really. but ah well. you go girls! do us proud! bring something back! in the end, we are all still TeamNUS and we support each other yar! wondering if we should go and send the team off. but it would be at midnight, and i have tonnes of work to do. bleah. i am sure the girls will enjoy themselves! and sure to take lots of pictures! haha.
ah well, and so sava sprint is coming in 2 weeks. this will be our first competition since the PM cup, and will consist of an entirely brand new team configuration, whether its in the 500 or 200 or mixed or whatever. i think its going to set some tone for us for the rest of the year. i have some hopes and expectations. really wondering how it will turn out. nonetheless, i kind of love competitions. really really. haha! and i wonder. cos everytime before any race, i would feel soooo nervous. i remember the ivp finals last year, my hands were quivering just before they said "go!" i wonder i have overcome this jittery tensions in me. i just love the end of it though, the thought that i have put in all my best in a certain set, put in my focus, my attention, my concentration, my heart, mind and soul. and whatever the result, i just want to feel that i have not let myself and my brothers down. but of course, there will be accompanying feelings of defeat or triumph, but for me they are pretty secondary. cos they are just fleeing emotions. all i really want to feel, is just to feel alive.
the juniors are really interesting. in them i see some of us when we first came in. not that i am so experienced. they seem to be bouncing with so much optimism, so much expectations. and i look at my ragged and bedrangled body and expressions, and wonder if i have grown old already. sometimes i wake up from bed in the middle of the night in shock at the re-discovery that i am actually 22 years old. i hope i can re-discover some of that youthful optimism they all have. and i hope they will have a fruitful and eye-opening experience at the sava sprints, whether they are rowing or not, whether they win or not. cos there is really alot more to db than just being in the boat, than just rowing, than just winning. sometimes just simply being there entails alot more about who we are and what life is than what we think it does.
oh. and i want to learn how to dance!!! after watching dance reflections i was so impressed! and especially after seeing our (PQ and i) classmate Liza do her thing on the stage. we were like "woah!" its interesting to see how our impressions about our friends can be enhanced just by seeing how sexy she shakes her ass. haha! sorry liza. but we just want to say "You were damn hot!" makes me want to join dance blast too. the only dance i can do, is nod my head to the beat of trance. and then get a headache. wonder if dance blast have any more free lessons teaching guys with 2 left feat how to dance hip hop. was going to ask a certain someone how to dance. heard he's good at the horizontal salsa. ah well. whatever that means. riiigghhhtt...
beside those above random thoughts. just want to say, i think i am having a better time this sem than the last two sems i have had, for more reasons than one. especially, cos i am staying in the hostel, especially with mel and alex, and in close proximity with people like jason, jiahe, teddy, gm and ms wen. i feel we are having so much fun together. love the alex moments, love the melvin moments, love it when people just drop by and inject more laughter in my life.
and a gentle reminder to all those who read this blog. please, when you see me, please shout my name and say hi! cos really, that would be so cool.