hey peepz!!!

OMG. it feels like ages since i last blog. and so i shall proceed to detail my meaningless, detail-less life that i deem exciting thus far.

basically, i was caught up in an essay due last wednesday. of course, what else could take my time right? girls? haha! riiggghhtt... anyway, so i rushed since saturday, to 2 am in the morning on wednesday to finish my paper and prepare for a presentation. i am just happy to say, that it is alll over. am glad that the prof did acknowledge that i did a 'good' job. whatever that means. it better translate to an A plus plus. rrriiiggghhttt... like the world works that way.

and since then, was busy with a test that would be administered after the mid sem break... yeeeahhh... and i was getting all excited for my first test of the sem... rrriiiggghhhttt... crazy bitch that i am.

and so, i had my fitness test last night. shant say much. lest i conjure images of supremacy and demand that i row the boat alone and win. rrriiiggghhhttt... now, that's a dream that's quite hard to attain. never improved, never value added. think i shall just quit and join the cheer leading squad. not that they are bad or anything. alex keeps telling me how fun it is, and how cute the people are. go! go! go! GM just wants to touch the girls. pervert. mel seems enthusiastic as well. haha! rrriiiggghhhttt... i think i can be one of the girls and get flipped around like pan cakes considering my petite size.

just go back from pacing mel. just glad he din give up. tried the pull ups until he succeed. i kind of need that kind of determination. i kind of need that much pride and force to motivate myself.

and so, did another day of household chores... sweep floor, mop floor, do laundry... fold clothes. and you guys wonder why i am so desperate for time. its cos i have to order the room around. its hard to believe, cos when the guys come over, i always have heaps of mess cos i am too busy (lazy) to clear them up. ah well. at least, i did it now. will plan another da shao chu next week.

the foreigners are flying off soon. i mean my friends who are studying overseas. back to their US/UK life of decadence. will see them again next year.

daryl has a cool hair cut. miss the bugger. need to catch up with him and hear about his pitiful life of chasing skirts that refuse to succumb to his charms. and of course his impossibility of getting grades like A pluses, only to settle unsatisfied with A minuses.

lin hui is flying off soon. will miss the bugger. everyday only want to go out with me cos he's exhausted his list of friends. and then he will always remind of the day when i died as 'section commander' in an outfield exercise and he had to replace me cos he was 2 ic. that ass. am sooo glad he is flying off. might send him off tho. just to laugh at him when he loeaves. haha!

back to the juniors: to all those who have fortuiously found my blog. congrats to you. and like that will make any difference. anyway, the juniors are super fit. many can run. many can do pull ups. many can do rowing machine. some can do 2. some can do all. what a bummer. sorry roystan. if you see this, take this with a pinch of salt, but "roystan must die." oh, that includes people like nazri, eugene, ben, colin, chee wee, and whoever else threatens to take my place. ah well. so glad that the team is getting stronger. i will always remember what jiahe says, draw inspiration from the juniors. think i shall.

okay, back to bitching about my academics: ARGH! i have already been lagging behind in my readings. 6 weeks have passed! and the deadlines are approaching, and the tests are coming, and i am still behind in readings!!! argh! the only thing that has kept me sane so far is my 'serentiy prayer.' i swear to God, it keeps me calm. it keeps me quiet. and gets me thinking more clearly.

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, courage to change the things i can, and wisdom to know the difference. living one day at a time, evjoying one moment at a time. accepting hardship as the pathway to peac. taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as i would have it. Trusting that He will make all things right if i surrender to His will. that i may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him forever in the next. amen.

anyway. ARGH!!!! there is so much work to be done whenever i see my schedule, and thinking about the upcoming trainings. yippeee...

my brother is in korea, my sister is in sheares, my parents are in bangkok. my grandma is all alone in her flat. hmm. when i called my grandma, the first thing she did was to proceed to scold me for living in the hostel. then she proceeded to tell my how my dad works hard for his money. then proceeds to hang me up the moment she found out that i am using my handphone (which means more money in bills). and then i wonder why i am so money-minded. cos my grandfather, who was initially rich, lost all his fortunes in gambling (he was dead by the time i was born). and then my dad and mom will rant about how hard it is to earn. and i know how hard it is to earn, just from 2 nights in conrad. and yet, i am still spending money like the progigal son that i am. dun worry, i know where my money is going. think i better quit the team and be a gigolo at night. heard its good money.

anyway, havent been hearing much from my sister, nor my brother. think they are very busy. been smsing dad though. glad to know everything is okay. hope they buy the coloured slippers i asked for. a wide range of slippers shall my my really lame attempt at sharpening my fashion image: at least the shirt and slippers will be colour coordinated. yippee...

really wish i could exercise everyday. really wish i was more free to do the things i want. but i cant, cos i am bogged down with commitments, commitments to my family, to my studies, to the team, to my friends, to myself, to my desires, expectations, hopes and dreams which i believe will probably never come true. think i am soaking in a warm water, the same way Kyo feels in Fruits Baskets. life has come to a lethargic trudge. not just now. its all year through. its not because its school. in fact i love school. really, i do. and i love the holidays. cos there is so much to do.

and so there is so much to do.