oh no. oh no. the dreaded day is coming. RECALL!!!! briefing. shit. sucks. what better way to end the year than a reminder of your ns life now that you are a civilian. i guess the army has a neat way of saying "singapore owns you." yup. these past few days of lethargy and dread can be attributed to the looming prospect of going back into the jungle, or last minute movements and nonsensical barking. oh... how... i... miss... those... days... *grit teeth and smile*

anyway, thanks for everyone's concern about my last two entries. sure i had a not-that-great christmas. but that has come and gone like the snow in june. i am fine. no prob. life goes on. i am aspiring to be an optimist like pq. and boy its damn hard trying to happy all the time.

im sorry girls, but i am going to be a little kinky now. i keep thinking of getting some mesh underwear. yes. mesh underwear. somehow the idea thrills me. okie. stop. the word "thrill" is not so appropriate. erm. "appeals" yup. the idea "appeals" to me. i just keep wonder how does it feel to have some soft net covering your human essentials. no. dun read this like i am some sort of pervert. okie. i am a bit perverse i realise with all this banter. but its not like i am going to start moaning in between orgasmic breaths wearing the underwear or something. its just that if nice clothes can make a person feel more comfortable and confident with oneself, what more the underwear? i mean look, the lingerie industry is just busting, oops, i mean bursting, with all sorts of undergarments, in both the male and female underwear. im sure these new innovative clothings do provide some sort of additional pleasure and confort to the wearer right? i am just curious. i dun want to wear torn and tattered white underwear anymore, the sort that little boys, whose parents cant be bothered to buy swimming trunks, wear when they go to the beach. i think i have grown up and i deserve better underwear! my lower body, and what more my most precious body part requires as much pampering as say my charming beautiful face (yes, i cleanse tone and moisturise) or my soft luscious hair (and yes, i apply conditioner whenever i bathe). [i have every right to be as secretly metrosexual aka himbo as i want to be.] haha!!! i think i am getting out of hand. i am just wondering what if feels to wear the different kinds of underwear available in the market. my guess is that many of you people out there are like closet g-string wearers or some inconspicous agents of some special kinds of bra. so how does it feel? any better than say grandma's panties? haha!!! before anyone goes out and get me some mimosa leaf or flower petal to pass off as some indecent loin cloth, let me declare that i dun want them, cos when my mom finds out, i am sure she will demand that i wear it and parade myself in front of her. so no. please. i beg of you. haha!!! i need comic relief. i am my own comedy.

sem 2. 3 months and 3 weeks before another bout of exam fever. when my friend told me that. i was stunned. oh dear. i gotta stock up on the vitamin pills. and i need to exercise more.

happy boxing day everybody! remember always to think out of the box-ing ring me on the handphone. good night!

see, this is the second blog in the span of one day. it can mean two things. so many things worth mentioning happened that warrants this entry; or i really really really have no life. well, i slept the whole day. the answers quite obvious then.

yes. weird. i acutally slept the entire afternoon away. this was because bad luck smacked my face again earlier in the day. i logged on to the bbdc (bukit batok driving centre) website to change the dates of my driving revision lessons. to my horror. i discovered they disappeared. the records did not reflect the fact i had already booked the lessons. they simply vanished. all FOUR lessons. i was shocked. i remained calm. i closed the browser and started again, hoping its the fault of my computer. but once reloaded it reflected emptiness. omg.... then i checked the account balance... 200 dollars.... but i put in 500!!! that meant the money for the four lessons had been paid for, but the booking statement clearly states that i had not booked any lesson at all.... 4 times 70 dollars.... amounts to 280 dollars.... gone.... the worse part was because i did the booking transactions on my computer... i did not print out the receipt which could only be done at the driving centre.... xian ji pua.... i have to call the centre tomorrow, or more troublesome, travel personally there to find out what happened. but as i ran through the possible scenario, i realise i have nothing to prove my claim... just some writings on my whiteboard which tell me that i have booked lessons on the 4th, 5th, 6th and 7th of january in the morning. no hard evidence, will they believe me???

fed up, depressed, lethargic....

was going to go out to gym today... yes gym... cos i had no one to go out with. or at least, i made no such plans. i wanted to gym. but when the above accident struck me, i just laid on my bed, engulfed with all sorts of worries and frustration. outside my room, i kept hearing my father, mother and sister talking about finding a few days to travel to malaysia. i dun know why, that just added to my irritation. my sister went out. my dad went to work. my mom kept saying she wanted to go watch the phantom of the opera. i was simply swimming drowsily in my head and fell asleep.

what a merry christmas.

well, at least i dun have to worry about changing my lesson dates. since the lessons dun even exist.

realise i dun blog as much anymore. that's cos i dun come online as much. that's because i have a life. a real actual living life. haha!!! but here i am. so it means i must be really bored.

anyway. its christmas day. i wish for world peace. and a billion dollars so i can buy "singapore" in dubai's "the world." in case all you lazy people out there who do not keep up with current affairs (actually i read about it by accident) dubai is constructing private islands that collectively look like the countries of the globe. there's america, australia and all. but these are small islands to be sold only to the richest and most powerful of the human race. the advertisement run: "private boat? check. private plane? check? private island? check." its crazy. i wish i was that rich. yeah and so if i can afford to buy "singapore" if there is one made, i will then be prime minister of "singapore." ha! eat that harry. and your screwed up education system!

oops. sorry. tis christmas. forgive and forget k? lets all be nice. world peace.

so the hottest question for the last few days was: "so how are you spending your christmas eve?" its the foremost question for the desperate and the lonely. well, last year's was a bummer. if i can remember correctly, i spent it on jurong island guarding, and maintaining the security at its highest level. nothing happened right? everybody had a safe christmas last year right? its because of us! the sad men in green who sacrifice their time away from their love ones to keep them safe from the evils of terrorism.

anyway, upon reentering the civil society, the question has caused quite a bit of concern. we realised that among the db juniors, all except ah fu and james are attached. and that has dawn upon some light on how sad and lonely us guys are, with no girl to hug and hold. we all know what our perfect christmas eve should be. a walk hand in hand along the beach listening to the sound of the waves, wrapping your arm around her waist and having her in your embrace, then heading to the bar and sip some wine and bask in her ambience. just the two of you, in romance. and then end of the night with some hot passionate sex. oops. i mean kiss. kiss. one hot passionate kiss. yes. thats nice. sex. no! i mean kiss.

all my friends have such nice christmas days. pq went to jalan jalan with his family, ben is in shanghai, jw is in hk, zx probably went for midnight mass, gm had a party (?!), alex had his church friends. sigh so what did i do? picked the one whose situation was the most accomdating. i went with alex to watch his friends sing christmas songs. sounds like the above describe situation right? but it was aaallllllllll wrong. haha!!! i was just desperate for company. and anyway, alex was only enthusiatic for me to come along, cos his church people are the evangelical kind. ie. i am a potential target for conversion into god's holy kingdom, and what better time than christmas? it was alright, except for the spending christmas with a guy part. but then again, i was thinking, why be sad simply because i am not attached to a girl. i should be happy that i have friends. friends who are just as unattached, but more than accomodating to have to spend some time with. anyway, so we chatted and we got to know more about each other as we listened to some really joyful people sing cheerful songs that went all out of pitch. but ah well, its christmas! well, it was just a short company and i went home early.

the truth was, i wanted to spend some time alone, at home. you know, do some reflecting on christmas. it was the original plan, until i turned down an invitation to got drinking at a bar. you see, i din not feel like drinking so i turned him down and my friend got pissed at me and ended off his rebuttal with "make it a point not to ask you out next time." i was quite depressed at that point. i was having lunch with my db friends after a sculling session and i showed the message to pq and alex. hiaz. it was such a dampaner for me. i mean, why did my friend had to get all emotional blackmail and stuff, and getting me to feel guilty and all bad on christmas eve. so in the end, although i could not find anyone to spend the night with, alex was kind enough to get me out to the esplanade. i guess he knew i was depressed. so thanks a lot man. think it would have been a really depressing christmas eve night if i din go out.

so i hope everyone had a good and memorable christmas eve.

and so it is christmas day. i woke up, hoping to watch 12 kingdoms and inuyasha which i requested my mother to tape last night. to my horror, they weren't taped!!! when i asked my mother, she realised that instead of hitting the "record" button, she pressed the "play" button. sigh. then she went on and on about how she din know how to operate the vcr (though i taught her before, at least i told her where the "record" button was), and how my dad never taught her (?!!!) and how technology was so advanced and how old she felt... and yeah... you know... stuff. i was kinda irritated, not the fact that she pressed the wrong button, cos i am fine with that for i can always go on the net to read the spoilers, but the fact that my mom was going on and on about what sounded to me like excuses. i am not sad that my mom said such things (cos she's my mom) but really that i realise that i sounded like her. i mean, i realised that at many points in my life, i myself had been making excuses and justifying myself, all in a bid to escape or deflect responsibility. in her behavior with i felt uncalled for, i found something i was ashamed of, something that i myself had done.

yeah. so such are my reflections... the sort of thoughts that i wanted to do last night. but i guess i just have to do it this morning. and so i shall put it down on my christmas list: i wish that i do not make as many excuses in the future than i have done so in the past. and i wish for world peace. and "singapore."

"focus your eyes on me! i said focus your eyes on me! Don't look at other people!"
"i am trying to find the shop."
-- ths couple talking behind me while i was walking through the crowded walkways of suntec

i thought it was very humourous. i was wondering what was going through the guy's mind... "i am trying to find the shop... (actually i am looking at all the other chio bus... chio. yes. no. no. yes. *looks at girlfriend*: no......)" ah well. the thoughts of the normal guy i guess...

after that, i got approached by a young lady from prudential selling policies (again)... filled out the questionaire... then she started the usual interrogation...

girl: where you working? (do i look that old??)
me: i am a student.
girl: oh where?
me: nus.
girl: oh i was from nus too, what fac? (really???)
me: arts.
girl: do you have a bank account? (duh...)
me: yes.
girl: are you working part time? (sounding worried...)
me: no.
girl: how much do you save a month? (sounding desperate...)
me: i dun save.
*stare stare* *expression changes*
*i tried to force a laugh*
girl: can you please help me buy a savings plan? (in girlish plea)
me *laugh again*: no.

all the while she was speaking so professionally until that last part. erm... "help you buy?" you mean help you earn your commission while i have to continually give money away to a company who god knows what do with it? its just funny how people can use all sorts of tactics to get you to buy things... the girlish pleas.. the coy act... flutter eyebrows... pout their lips... simply throwing themselves at you... wait... i make it sound as if its a bad thing. still... its not professional. sale people like her wont even make it through the first interview rounds for the apprentice.

time to tok about gm again. read his blog. was so surprised to see him hugging two not-too-bad looking girls. always thought he was some lonesome despo... guess i was wrong. haha!!! he does have the charm... i just wonder how drunk were the girls when they agreed to take a photo with him. kiddin bro! kiddin... i just wish i could be in your position too... haha!!! hands around a slender hip, caressing her curvy contours, smelling her fragrant hair, my manly chest barely brushing her feminine bossom... okay. stop stop! too much fantasizing liao....

help. lifes to interesting for me to handle.

like finally, blogging.

yesterday, went to benedict quah's aunt's house. fyi, ben is one of my dearest friend from rjc, together with pq, jw, michelle, liza, val, and many others. ben just happens to be the most popular due to his wierd, autocratic and deeply humourous-in-a-negative-way ways. but he's prob our most favourite person we would hate to love. haha! anyway, my subject is not on wonderful, great, supreme, intelligent, comedic, chief-of-justice-to-be, and prime-minister-to-be.

the topic is on his aunt's house situated in an area called old holland road, ie, bukit timah. well, the part of bukit timah near all the famous districts 2, 3, 4, 5, 6 and what-nots. in short, his relatives are incredibly filthily, disgustingly, obscenely, horrendously, atrociously and irritatingly rich. the first thing ben set out to do was to give us a guided tour round the house. its so big, his mom, who was there as well with his grandmama, was like, "ben, start from the outside, start from the outside..." well, imagine the vastness, and grandeur of the estate that warrants a structured and guided tour... "so this is the hall..." (wow, the hall is as big as my house) "then this is the kitchen" (wow, the kitchen is also as big as my house) "then this is the in-built swimming pool" (wow, the pool is bigger than my house) ... you get the picture right? if thats not enought. the estate is three stories high, with a basement, 8 ponds, a cascading waterfall at the edge of the swimming pool, 4 bed rooms, a masterbed room, 3 study rooms, a table tennis room, a pool room, 7 toilets (or more), 2 or 3 kitchens, the maids quaters. there was even a separate bathroom for the swimming pool. "oh, my other aunt and uncle were the architects for this house... open concept... their own house? hm.. also they design one... but a bit smaller..." a bit smaller? i found my concepts of size was ultimately turn topsy turvy when ben was going "oh this house is not big... the neighbours house is bigger..." i felt i myself was a speck of dirt that did not belong is such majestic place. dun mistaken me. i love the house. its huge, its lovely, is great. i just hate the fact that its not mine.

benedict was so kind and accurate to point out all the tiny details for us, from where a wall mosaic came from (bali, brought in in square pieces, and very expensive) to where the koi from the ponds came from (oh, each are like 500 dollars and there were like probably at least 30 of them). anyway, what other interesting facts are there to point? hmm, the pool needs to be cleaned once in two days by professionals, the lights are all light bulbs (not florescent) , there has got to be at least a hundred windows, the german shepard is very young but it can bite your head off, there's a jacuzzi in the son's bed room.

but i thought the most humourous example of extreme wealth was when we were going home, ben was discussing with his mom, "so which car should we drive back? car number 1 or car number 2? or our own car?" jw, pq and i were so amused. then i and pq were humouring, "oh next time, i will go, 'hm, should my chaffeur take car number 1 or car number 50?'" then pq joked back, "oh i will go, 'hm, should, my chaffeur number 1 take car number 3 or should my chaffuer number 2 take car number 50?'" haha!! it was pretty funny. and in a way pretty depressing.

it was a pretty fun day. ben and pq went swimming, and jw was lying on the deck chairs like some rich tai-tai reading 8 days. (i am going to be embarrassing people here all for the fun of it.) PQ was desperately trying to get on this float-bed but no matter how many times he tried to get on, he always flopped back into the water like a crocodile, displaying his great hydrodynamics, or the lack there-of. ben was hm, "frolicking" in the water. like a big ape in a ballerina frock trying to dance. haha!! okay, i should stop. i am very grateful for the invitation from ben. very honoured. oh i almost forgot. there was a short period of time when ben and pq got cosy in the jacuzzi i mentioned above. mind you, the jacuzzi was large and comfortable for 1 person, but for 2. it was, erm, er, quite, hm. should i say "romantic"? haha!!! well, jw and i were playing pool downstairs for 20 minutes, and we were wondering what the two guys were doing upstairs, squeezing two almost naked bodies, save for their tight swimming trunks, in a nice tub of warm water.... hm.. suspicion, suspicion. i will stop here. i claim i am not insinuating anything. on purpose at least. all of the above information i reckon to be true thoughts at each point of time. so pq, dun sue me. nor you ben. jw, i hope you enjoyed this entry.

at the end of the day, at least for me. it was a lesson of how the upper crust of society seem to be living, judging by their abode. and i made up my mind, i will not stay in such a house. its too big, too expensive and the maintenance is too hight. i like the simple life, and prefer to keep my millions in the banks, or at least in investments, and stay in a small nice flat or condominium that's close to shopping centres and other convenient ammenities.

went to send the guys off for their expedition at the airport. met up with benny, yao and shiying. so nice to see benny alive. apparently he's with this new girl, shumei. haha!! she's quite pretty. wish i could get someone like her. so another bachelor bites the dust... leaving poor souls like me eating it.

shiying looks like she's slimmed down. would have liked to talked to her more, but her bf and father was around. she's quite a pretty girl. maybe? maybe not? haha! she's attached. and she's smart. and she has the memory of an elephant. now thats scary. she told me she's on a six day week at the start of the sem. and i forgot. "i thought i told you i have a six day week?" stunned. she remembered telling me. i forgot all about it. haha!!! well, its always scary to go out with super smart women. terribly intimidating. and its morally wrong to steal a girl from someone else. a man's code of honour. crap.

oh. one incident to report. was on the sky train from terminal 2 to terminal 1. stalled for at least 20 minutes. the humourous thing was that a lot of people went to the front to peer through the window to see what's happened. the thing was that they stayed staring through the window, when there was absolutely no movement or progress whatsoever. its just funny. then these full grown men started chittering among themselves how sucky the system was, like old bitchy grandmudders. haha!

after that, i went to expo to help alex sell candles for charity. apparently, its for Mercy Relief, a humantitarian organisation that provides financial aid to disaster-stricken countries. its quite a tough job trying to sell the candles, and convince people to donate for charity. people just stare, or walk off, or just wave you away. there were these two girls, as i was walking towards me, they walked away. haha!!! it was quite funny. like there was an invisible force field between us, the prevents us from talking to each other. then there was this other girl, who saw me walking to her. i stopped her. and started the promotion. then i asked "did i scare you just now?" "yes." [silence. laughter. silence] anyway, i managed to sell enough to be proud of myself. haha! it was just six hours. then i imagined my sister who solicited donations EVERYDAY for 3 MONTHS under the hot sun. kudos to her. she's one capable, determined girl.

will help again on friday. till then, i will read up on sales techniques. only wished i was a handsome hunk, who attracts the girls to buy on their own enthusiasm without me uttering a word. hey gm, wanna help? he's the perfect candidate to help. at the same time can get to know more girls.

"Went to meet some of the DB juniors on Friday at Suntec and ate at Fish & Co. Pretty uneventful except that MC and Alex shared a seafood platter for 2 and they behaved like gays in love.....

MC: "erm...you eat first lah...."
Alex: "okay..you eat also lah..."
MC: "you take half of the fish k...."
Alex: "alright...u eat also hor...."

WAH LAN!!!! NOT GAY LAH!!!! hahahaha....."

when i read what gm wrote, i was super amused. haha! din really know i talked like that. now that i read what has been observed of me, yes, i think my behaviour was super gay. haha!!! oh dear. now there are two things to worry about. one is my apparently overly considerate behavior is seen as"gay" and the other, that i seem to have been keenly observed by someone who moans, whines and complains all day and all night about not being attached. i heard before that when men are desperate, they will take anything or rather, anyone. be careful mc, be very careful. well, at least we provided some entertainment. haha!!!

haha!!! no, kidding, gm, im sure he's never thought of going off the beaten track. speaking of whom, i wonder how's he and the rest of the dragon boaters who took part in today's standard chartered marathon. i am really impressed they even decided to take on this challenge. i definitely wont be able to complete the 42 km run without rigorous training beforehand. but then again, gm seem to have finished it alive, so i guess, hey, it cant be that hard.

going to send yao, benny, shiying, shane and shamanta off at the airport tomorrow. they are going to india for YEP (youth expedition programme) for volunteerism. sigh. jiakai the OIC asked me to go, but i couldn't because i was in db and usp. i was too busy to get myself involved. sigh. i was really hoping to join the expedition before the school term started when i first heard of the plan. so many of my friends are going, and yet i am here in singapore. how i wished i could join them and sweat under the sun together all in the name for charity. im sure the memories would be fond and unforgettable. here's to the kind souls and fervent hearts striving together for the brighter future. i wish i had the capacity and the time to be like them. hm. db should organize a volunteer outing.

watched mean girls on vcd rental today at home. quite a nice, teenie movie. its about an innocent girl who unknowingly became a mean girl and realised her mistakes and atoned for her sins. its a meaningful movie about becoming lost in a seductive world and finding oneself back again. if you are not into the whole metaphysical crap, linsay lohan is simply gorgeous. watch it because of her. and the whole "plastics" (a bunch of beautiful, blonde and brunette bitches behaving badly [oh my, alliteration]) is quite funny too. well, the show is definitely better than alexander. then again, watching a trail of ants for 3 hours is better than alexander.

sigh. was having dinner with my mom, who suddenly launched into a profusion of motherly expectations. about how she wants kids, about how she hopes her kids get married, about how disappointed about my brother being "ashamed" of his parents. it was quite funny, cos we were conversing in chinese. then suddenly she asked my how big my penis was. it was hilarious. i was quite stunned. then she complained how my brother and i stripped naked when we had chicken pox so mom could apply calamine lotion on our backs and butt. "but i was in primary 6!" "but your brother was sec 4!" then she started requesting to see how big it was. i was laughing my head off. and vehemently screaming at her and saying no. no. no. then she used her fingers to simulate the length and asked how big again. "this big?" or "this big?" widening her fingers little by little. i got so amused and said "small. its small. its very small." just to end the conversation. (stop. before all your imaginations run wild, i should say its of a considerable size. i think. i never measure!!!)

then suddenly she went all serious and said "dun be angry when i ask you. are you gay?" (i visualise gm nodding hopefully, haha!) i was laughing even harder. i was super amused. cos the other day, i had a male friend over and we locked ourselves in my room poring over my magic cards. "how i know what you two guys are doing in the room?" there was once in the past, my mom asked my sis if she was a lesbian when she invited her girlfriends over and they locked themselves in her room all night. my sister got so angry, she locked herself in the room. she asked me cos "i know you wont get angry." of course i din get angry cos i kept laughing. its amusing cos my mother is consistently worrying, and worrying over nothing. and apparently, i have been in the house for way too long.

then it suddenly dawned on me that my mother has absolutely no idea what lives her children are going through, the stresses, the challenges, the obstacles, the highs and lows of teenagehood and present day adulthood. in her mind, she's any other "mother" of the past, expecting many many grandchildren and living happily in a big house cared for by her filial children, who run successful careers and sustain happy marriages. the thought that my mother carries such ideals is simply scary. its not wrong, but in today's world, its super unrealistic. i must understand that its only natural that my mom thinks so, cos for the past 20 over years, she's been living the life of a regal tai tai, travelling to various tourist destinations around the world and all. the world my mom lives in is very rosy. my dad on the other hand simply toils and toils all day to make money, other than that, he is sleeping at home. he's the typical father who sacrifices everything for the "well-being" and "happiness" of the family members, at the expense of himself, his personality, his life. and all he too asks for, are the same ideals as my mother.

they failed to see that the simple lives they have led in their lifetime has vastly changed today. my parents were uneducated, and they rode the waves of posperity of the post war years to arrive at their middle class status today. and their children on the other hand are dealing with totally different scenarios now. its not all about "diligence" where if you just work hard, you will be rewarded. its about "competition" where at any point of time, you can just be killed and left for dead. its not about work, getting a wife and settle down. its about FINDING a job, FINDING LOVE, and think of ways to scrimp and save just so as to SURVIVE from day to day. its confusing, its frustrating, its difficult. and my parents apparently do not understand. or rather they do not bother to understand. they have lived too comfortably in their years to try to. my mom just complains no one teaches her how to use the computer, and my dad, sigh. never mind. its unfilial of me to speak badly of my parents. i am just frustrated that my parents do not comprehend. and not only do they not understand, they seek to impose unrealistic expectations shaped and formed by their own bucolic lives onto their children who lead not so simple ones.

im tired already. tired from trying to explain to my mom that they should not push their children too hard. that's why many youths commit suicide. i told her that i probably cant sustain myself, how am i not sustain my parents? i told her i will buy her a condo, and she looked pleased. i told her i may not want kids, and she started griping about how she yearns to be a grandmother. somehow its futile. it seems hopeless. i am trapped between pursuing my own roads and the wishes my parents have for me.

i need to get out. get away. yet, i am stuck. i cant fly cos i am rooted.

good morning, singapore! only that the overcast skies are getting me into a melancholy mood. however, i am appreciating the moment, when i am just typing out a blog entry, listening to sun yan zi's album with a cup of oats on the table, just relaxing before i hit the gym to get my adrenaline rush. heh. i wish life was like this forever. okay not forever, too much to ask for. at least until the end of the holidays.

went for a movie and a dinner last night with my dragonboat buddies. went to fish and co with pq, alex, gm, xiangyi and melvin. shared seafood platter for 2 with alex. its a long time since i had that it was simply delicious. acutally finished my shared without feeling bloated like the last time. maybe its was too good. maybe i have a bigger stomach. maybe i was just very very hungry. heh. anyway. had a good dinner. learnt that alex likes to kick children, and at the same time has this whole list of expectations about what his own children must do in their childhood like play certain kinds of sports and all. haha! i imagine alex kicking his own kid if he decides to defy his expectant father. melvin wants his daughter to wear tight mini skirts and play tennis. can i be her coach melvin??? haha!!! the rest dun know if they will ever get the love of their lives and settle down and spawn football fields of children enough to start a team.

me included. i wonder if i will ever get down to starting a family. then again, i have an adverse dislike for crying, screaming, kicking kids with high pitch ear plitting wails. simultaneous, i love quiet children sitting still on chairs and looking at you with his or her huge eyes with wonder and amazement. of course, my children will have tiny eyes like mine, but no matter. such children will always be beautiful to me. oh god, i wonder if wives come in bundles carried by storks as they do children in all those disney cartoons.

anyway, after the dinner we went to watch alexander, joined by stanley and riesal. (warning: spoiler spoiler. then again i want to spoil it so you guys wont watch it) please, please, please i beg of you by the gods of zeus and hera, mercury and aphrodite, do NOT watch the show, do not but the vcd or dvd if you have. its a bad, bad show. terrible, a flop, a disaster. poor story narration, mediocre acting, worst direction ever. the lines are cryptic with winding words and arcaic english imitating uncomprehensible greek. the battle scenes are simply the director shaking his camera spasmodically at men swing knives around while assistants at the side splay ketchup and chilli sauce repeatedly. got such a big headache just trying make out what the heck was happening. the story has absolutely no focus. was the movie about treachery? or about chasing your dreams? or the qualities that make a great general. alexander has been famed as the greatest conqueror ever, but the story seems to be befuddled with repeated scenes of talk about power, women, Philip, conspiracies and all. maybe the movie is simply to reflect alexanders deteriorating mind descending into madness. still, there is no main story line except maybe alexander conquered but died because of his boyfriend. speaking of which, the gay scenes are super mild. seriously. i wonder what was all the hype about. my sister wants desperately to see two guys get together (sounds a little perverse on her part), but they dun. no big story of unrequited love like the titanic, just a side show of homoeroticism, that seems to have grabbed the attention of the movie goers. all you get is two guys declaring affection for each other which always just ends up with a hug. okay, so alexander kissed this body twisting servant for like 1 second. but its not even a kiss of passionate love. its bland. the show i mean. so the girls would love the show for that 1 second glimpse of colin farrell's butt. but, really, theres nothing exciting about that scene either. for the guys, so, there's the one interesting scene after alexander's wedding to an asian dancer, when they (no need to be shy here) had sex (gasp). well, you get to see what PQ the perv lawyer calls "pendulous boobs". the sex scene was like the battle field scenes, a frenetic shaking of the camera that seemed to aim at simply shooting two wriggling bodies that are supposed to be moving and moaning to the rhythm of love making. all you get is a blur of skin and a shadow of alexander climaxing. its devoid of passion. its devoid of cinematography. i mean, the show is bad enough. at least have some decent sex scenes. to please the movie goers at least. all that scene was sucessful at raising was my right eyebrow in the expression that says "uh????" but i must say, angelina jolie is super sultry and absolutely delicious, with that lips and eyes of hers. she plays a poisonous mother. well, she and that accent of hers can poison me anytime man. she's what I call, "one hot momma." in summary, bad battle scenes, bad gay scenes, bad sex scenes, bad story line, one hot woman. but still, a bad movie overall. oh. one more thing, its bad enough that the movies is a flop, two guys on my right had to giggle and laugh at what was supposed to be the saddest scene of all when alexander's lover dies of poison (apparently). well, decent people had to try their best to appreciate the show, but two guys had just to spoil it. haha! kidding PQ, GM. but it was kinda irritating but when they told us the joke, it was really funny (refer to PQ's blog for the humourous reason why they were laughing).

taufik won. yipee. whoever he is. never follow singapore idol. i am my own idol. worship me.

watched bridget jones: the edge of reason with yao at lot one last night. so nice to meet him again. and we finally played some pool. its funny how i was not feeling as excited to play the game as last time. the passion seems to have disappated somewhat. sigh. maybe its because i have been away from the game for too long. haha!!! played quite badly. ah well.

the movie was so-so. interesting sequel. a lot of references back to the first movie. the whole i-am-an-award-winning-journalist re-re-affirmation, the whole big butt in your face and the whole i-finally-have-unlimited-sex thing. haha!!! read ong sor fen's review in the papers. the thing i liked most about the show was rebecca giles. the only beautiful creature in the entire show. (hugh grant for the girls). except, and heres the supposed shocker. she's lesbian. in love with bridget jones. gasp. and they kissed. on screen. gasp gasp. and boy was it hot. haha!!! the next thing i like about bridget jones, is that she is unromantic on the outside yet so full of passion. like me. i can love someone until i choke her to death, but i can't express my emotions in a romantic, poetic, shakespearean way. haha! i am a wooden block with a heart made of cotton candy. but other than that. the shows quite bland, especially the ending. of course, for the girls, there's always hugh grant and *gasp* colin firth. ah well.

that was last night. and just now, as singapore idol was apparently being broadcast, i was watching this korean romance movie on vcd on the computer call IL MARE. its the name of the featured house. its a romance via letter across time between two heart broken lovers who find solace and yes, new found love in each others letters through a magical, time-travelling letter box. the show is beautiful, and at parts really sad. i was kept in suspense, whether or not they will ever be together. and then there are parts that are really heart aching. felt like crying a few times, but the setting is not right. i would have if it was in a cinema with my lover in my arms. haha!! sigh. still, its a great show to watch for the love birds. and apparently, the female lead is the same star for my sassy girl. she tall and boy is she beautiful. no wonder my friends are smittened by her. thanks yao for the recommendation.

ok. thats all for now. my plan for the holidays is really simple, just exercise, read and socialise upon invitation. sounds boring. sounds like what i have been doing for the last sem. oh except the socialising part.

merry christamas.