"Went to meet some of the DB juniors on Friday at Suntec and ate at Fish & Co. Pretty uneventful except that MC and Alex shared a seafood platter for 2 and they behaved like gays in love.....
MC: "erm...you eat first lah...."
Alex: "okay..you eat also lah..."
MC: "you take half of the fish k...."
Alex: "alright...u eat also hor...."
WAH LAN!!!! NOT GAY LAH!!!! hahahaha....."
when i read what gm wrote, i was super amused. haha! din really know i talked like that. now that i read what has been observed of me, yes, i think my behaviour was super gay. haha!!! oh dear. now there are two things to worry about. one is my apparently overly considerate behavior is seen as"gay" and the other, that i seem to have been keenly observed by someone who moans, whines and complains all day and all night about not being attached. i heard before that when men are desperate, they will take anything or rather, anyone. be careful mc, be very careful. well, at least we provided some entertainment. haha!!!
haha!!! no, kidding, gm, im sure he's never thought of going off the beaten track. speaking of whom, i wonder how's he and the rest of the dragon boaters who took part in today's standard chartered marathon. i am really impressed they even decided to take on this challenge. i definitely wont be able to complete the 42 km run without rigorous training beforehand. but then again, gm seem to have finished it alive, so i guess, hey, it cant be that hard.
going to send yao, benny, shiying, shane and shamanta off at the airport tomorrow. they are going to india for YEP (youth expedition programme) for volunteerism. sigh. jiakai the OIC asked me to go, but i couldn't because i was in db and usp. i was too busy to get myself involved. sigh. i was really hoping to join the expedition before the school term started when i first heard of the plan. so many of my friends are going, and yet i am here in singapore. how i wished i could join them and sweat under the sun together all in the name for charity. im sure the memories would be fond and unforgettable. here's to the kind souls and fervent hearts striving together for the brighter future. i wish i had the capacity and the time to be like them. hm. db should organize a volunteer outing.
watched mean girls on vcd rental today at home. quite a nice, teenie movie. its about an innocent girl who unknowingly became a mean girl and realised her mistakes and atoned for her sins. its a meaningful movie about becoming lost in a seductive world and finding oneself back again. if you are not into the whole metaphysical crap, linsay lohan is simply gorgeous. watch it because of her. and the whole "plastics" (a bunch of beautiful, blonde and brunette bitches behaving badly [oh my, alliteration]) is quite funny too. well, the show is definitely better than alexander. then again, watching a trail of ants for 3 hours is better than alexander.
sigh. was having dinner with my mom, who suddenly launched into a profusion of motherly expectations. about how she wants kids, about how she hopes her kids get married, about how disappointed about my brother being "ashamed" of his parents. it was quite funny, cos we were conversing in chinese. then suddenly she asked my how big my penis was. it was hilarious. i was quite stunned. then she complained how my brother and i stripped naked when we had chicken pox so mom could apply calamine lotion on our backs and butt. "but i was in primary 6!" "but your brother was sec 4!" then she started requesting to see how big it was. i was laughing my head off. and vehemently screaming at her and saying no. no. no. then she used her fingers to simulate the length and asked how big again. "this big?" or "this big?" widening her fingers little by little. i got so amused and said "small. its small. its very small." just to end the conversation. (stop. before all your imaginations run wild, i should say its of a considerable size. i think. i never measure!!!)
then suddenly she went all serious and said "dun be angry when i ask you. are you gay?" (i visualise gm nodding hopefully, haha!) i was laughing even harder. i was super amused. cos the other day, i had a male friend over and we locked ourselves in my room poring over my magic cards. "how i know what you two guys are doing in the room?" there was once in the past, my mom asked my sis if she was a lesbian when she invited her girlfriends over and they locked themselves in her room all night. my sister got so angry, she locked herself in the room. she asked me cos "i know you wont get angry." of course i din get angry cos i kept laughing. its amusing cos my mother is consistently worrying, and worrying over nothing. and apparently, i have been in the house for way too long.
then it suddenly dawned on me that my mother has absolutely no idea what lives her children are going through, the stresses, the challenges, the obstacles, the highs and lows of teenagehood and present day adulthood. in her mind, she's any other "mother" of the past, expecting many many grandchildren and living happily in a big house cared for by her filial children, who run successful careers and sustain happy marriages. the thought that my mother carries such ideals is simply scary. its not wrong, but in today's world, its super unrealistic. i must understand that its only natural that my mom thinks so, cos for the past 20 over years, she's been living the life of a regal tai tai, travelling to various tourist destinations around the world and all. the world my mom lives in is very rosy. my dad on the other hand simply toils and toils all day to make money, other than that, he is sleeping at home. he's the typical father who sacrifices everything for the "well-being" and "happiness" of the family members, at the expense of himself, his personality, his life. and all he too asks for, are the same ideals as my mother.
they failed to see that the simple lives they have led in their lifetime has vastly changed today. my parents were uneducated, and they rode the waves of posperity of the post war years to arrive at their middle class status today. and their children on the other hand are dealing with totally different scenarios now. its not all about "diligence" where if you just work hard, you will be rewarded. its about "competition" where at any point of time, you can just be killed and left for dead. its not about work, getting a wife and settle down. its about FINDING a job, FINDING LOVE, and think of ways to scrimp and save just so as to SURVIVE from day to day. its confusing, its frustrating, its difficult. and my parents apparently do not understand. or rather they do not bother to understand. they have lived too comfortably in their years to try to. my mom just complains no one teaches her how to use the computer, and my dad, sigh. never mind. its unfilial of me to speak badly of my parents. i am just frustrated that my parents do not comprehend. and not only do they not understand, they seek to impose unrealistic expectations shaped and formed by their own bucolic lives onto their children who lead not so simple ones.
im tired already. tired from trying to explain to my mom that they should not push their children too hard. that's why many youths commit suicide. i told her that i probably cant sustain myself, how am i not sustain my parents? i told her i will buy her a condo, and she looked pleased. i told her i may not want kids, and she started griping about how she yearns to be a grandmother. somehow its futile. it seems hopeless. i am trapped between pursuing my own roads and the wishes my parents have for me.
i need to get out. get away. yet, i am stuck. i cant fly cos i am rooted.
MC: "erm...you eat first lah...."
Alex: "okay..you eat also lah..."
MC: "you take half of the fish k...."
Alex: "alright...u eat also hor...."
WAH LAN!!!! NOT GAY LAH!!!! hahahaha....."
when i read what gm wrote, i was super amused. haha! din really know i talked like that. now that i read what has been observed of me, yes, i think my behaviour was super gay. haha!!! oh dear. now there are two things to worry about. one is my apparently overly considerate behavior is seen as"gay" and the other, that i seem to have been keenly observed by someone who moans, whines and complains all day and all night about not being attached. i heard before that when men are desperate, they will take anything or rather, anyone. be careful mc, be very careful. well, at least we provided some entertainment. haha!!!
haha!!! no, kidding, gm, im sure he's never thought of going off the beaten track. speaking of whom, i wonder how's he and the rest of the dragon boaters who took part in today's standard chartered marathon. i am really impressed they even decided to take on this challenge. i definitely wont be able to complete the 42 km run without rigorous training beforehand. but then again, gm seem to have finished it alive, so i guess, hey, it cant be that hard.
going to send yao, benny, shiying, shane and shamanta off at the airport tomorrow. they are going to india for YEP (youth expedition programme) for volunteerism. sigh. jiakai the OIC asked me to go, but i couldn't because i was in db and usp. i was too busy to get myself involved. sigh. i was really hoping to join the expedition before the school term started when i first heard of the plan. so many of my friends are going, and yet i am here in singapore. how i wished i could join them and sweat under the sun together all in the name for charity. im sure the memories would be fond and unforgettable. here's to the kind souls and fervent hearts striving together for the brighter future. i wish i had the capacity and the time to be like them. hm. db should organize a volunteer outing.
watched mean girls on vcd rental today at home. quite a nice, teenie movie. its about an innocent girl who unknowingly became a mean girl and realised her mistakes and atoned for her sins. its a meaningful movie about becoming lost in a seductive world and finding oneself back again. if you are not into the whole metaphysical crap, linsay lohan is simply gorgeous. watch it because of her. and the whole "plastics" (a bunch of beautiful, blonde and brunette bitches behaving badly [oh my, alliteration]) is quite funny too. well, the show is definitely better than alexander. then again, watching a trail of ants for 3 hours is better than alexander.
sigh. was having dinner with my mom, who suddenly launched into a profusion of motherly expectations. about how she wants kids, about how she hopes her kids get married, about how disappointed about my brother being "ashamed" of his parents. it was quite funny, cos we were conversing in chinese. then suddenly she asked my how big my penis was. it was hilarious. i was quite stunned. then she complained how my brother and i stripped naked when we had chicken pox so mom could apply calamine lotion on our backs and butt. "but i was in primary 6!" "but your brother was sec 4!" then she started requesting to see how big it was. i was laughing my head off. and vehemently screaming at her and saying no. no. no. then she used her fingers to simulate the length and asked how big again. "this big?" or "this big?" widening her fingers little by little. i got so amused and said "small. its small. its very small." just to end the conversation. (stop. before all your imaginations run wild, i should say its of a considerable size. i think. i never measure!!!)
then suddenly she went all serious and said "dun be angry when i ask you. are you gay?" (i visualise gm nodding hopefully, haha!) i was laughing even harder. i was super amused. cos the other day, i had a male friend over and we locked ourselves in my room poring over my magic cards. "how i know what you two guys are doing in the room?" there was once in the past, my mom asked my sis if she was a lesbian when she invited her girlfriends over and they locked themselves in her room all night. my sister got so angry, she locked herself in the room. she asked me cos "i know you wont get angry." of course i din get angry cos i kept laughing. its amusing cos my mother is consistently worrying, and worrying over nothing. and apparently, i have been in the house for way too long.
then it suddenly dawned on me that my mother has absolutely no idea what lives her children are going through, the stresses, the challenges, the obstacles, the highs and lows of teenagehood and present day adulthood. in her mind, she's any other "mother" of the past, expecting many many grandchildren and living happily in a big house cared for by her filial children, who run successful careers and sustain happy marriages. the thought that my mother carries such ideals is simply scary. its not wrong, but in today's world, its super unrealistic. i must understand that its only natural that my mom thinks so, cos for the past 20 over years, she's been living the life of a regal tai tai, travelling to various tourist destinations around the world and all. the world my mom lives in is very rosy. my dad on the other hand simply toils and toils all day to make money, other than that, he is sleeping at home. he's the typical father who sacrifices everything for the "well-being" and "happiness" of the family members, at the expense of himself, his personality, his life. and all he too asks for, are the same ideals as my mother.
they failed to see that the simple lives they have led in their lifetime has vastly changed today. my parents were uneducated, and they rode the waves of posperity of the post war years to arrive at their middle class status today. and their children on the other hand are dealing with totally different scenarios now. its not all about "diligence" where if you just work hard, you will be rewarded. its about "competition" where at any point of time, you can just be killed and left for dead. its not about work, getting a wife and settle down. its about FINDING a job, FINDING LOVE, and think of ways to scrimp and save just so as to SURVIVE from day to day. its confusing, its frustrating, its difficult. and my parents apparently do not understand. or rather they do not bother to understand. they have lived too comfortably in their years to try to. my mom just complains no one teaches her how to use the computer, and my dad, sigh. never mind. its unfilial of me to speak badly of my parents. i am just frustrated that my parents do not comprehend. and not only do they not understand, they seek to impose unrealistic expectations shaped and formed by their own bucolic lives onto their children who lead not so simple ones.
im tired already. tired from trying to explain to my mom that they should not push their children too hard. that's why many youths commit suicide. i told her that i probably cant sustain myself, how am i not sustain my parents? i told her i will buy her a condo, and she looked pleased. i told her i may not want kids, and she started griping about how she yearns to be a grandmother. somehow its futile. it seems hopeless. i am trapped between pursuing my own roads and the wishes my parents have for me.
i need to get out. get away. yet, i am stuck. i cant fly cos i am rooted.