hey peepz!
it feels like eternity since i last blogged!!! and it feels like eternity to the power of eternity since i last read everyone else's blogs!!! i suddenly felt so out of touch with my friends' lives. i felt to lost. so distant.
several factor have contributed to this pathetic situation. firstly, whenever i am in the room, i log into my computer now instead of the school domain. why? cos when i log into the school's domain and connect to the internet through the vpn, the connection keeps getting interrupted. and the better way was through the computer system. there was another story behind this story. in a nutshell, someone messed with my lap top to help, only to lock me out of my lap cos i dun remember the default password, only to result in me running from one place to another and to be told the password in 5 seconds, and after the kind person tried to crack the code throughout the night. ah well. and what is the whole point after this cock and bull story? all my bookmarks are in the computer domain and not in the computer system. so with no bookmarks whenever i log into the computer system in my room, i never did get onto their blogs to take a look. so basically, i am just lazy.
the second factor is, that i have been pretty caught up in school work. or rather, i have been half caught up in WORRYING about school work, and the other half attempting at some ineffective studying, which in turn infuriates me, and leaves me fuming at myself for the rest of my waking moments. so, no time to read blogs.
the third factor was, that i have been sick for a very, very long time. much time was spent in bed, being drowsy, visitng dr victor loh 4 times, getting a chest x-ray done, and simply just being sick and down and angry and frustrated and yadda yadda yadda. well, i am glad to announce that i have recently recovered. the "official" day of recovery was on sunday, when i went for a run with the guys, only to finish it like super dead last. made me realise how much impact the illness has caused to my cardiovascular system. and how much the rest of the people have improved.
the fourth factor was, that i have been busy doing all sort of unnecessary things! like photocopy coursepacks and notes and books. yes, books. books which are nicely binded but whose pages are still warm and crisp and nicely sitting on the top of my shelf, untouched, unflipped, unviolated. why? cos they have absolutely NOTHING to do with my curriculum. these are books of purely personal interest, and by reading them not only has no positive contribution to my goal of 4.5, but are in fact rather detrimental to my academic health. yes. i am dumb. yes. i am stupid. but oh, i missed photocopying already. and yes. i am sick sick sick in the mind.
the fifth factor was, i have been busy moving into the room, and enriching it with all sort of food, snacks, books, paper, clothes, and whatever you would dream of if only you had totaly independence and that you have your own house, and you want to make it your dream loft. yes. i was busy going out to places like clementi and ikea sourcing for ideas, and actually going about window shopping, with one question in my mind when i look at niceties: do i need this? and then my left hemisphere and my right hemisphere would collaborate and come up with all sorts of reason why i should and why i should not get this nicety. and then my brain would fight with my heart about whether i should think twice about getting this nicety, and then my heart and my hands would fight again as i take out my wallet in a split second to fish out cash to purchase the nicety. and now the nicety is nicely in my room. and if you repeat this above process like about 20 to 30 times a day, you would then realise where all my time was going to.
yes, yes, yes. this is the third week of school, a nice warm, throughly enjoyed wednesday. i have a tutorial tomorrow and another on friday, and a paper submission on friday. wow. and then, i am here blogging my time away. and then i wonder, what the hell am i doing here at all???? and then i would realise that i should try to dissociate myself with blogs altogether and concentrate on my work.
ahh, the intricate complexities and contradictions of life pervades my every being, my every moment, my every day. now i only wonder what else can i do to waste my time away? as a big '4.5' stares right into my face.
i wonder.
it feels like eternity since i last blogged!!! and it feels like eternity to the power of eternity since i last read everyone else's blogs!!! i suddenly felt so out of touch with my friends' lives. i felt to lost. so distant.
several factor have contributed to this pathetic situation. firstly, whenever i am in the room, i log into my computer now instead of the school domain. why? cos when i log into the school's domain and connect to the internet through the vpn, the connection keeps getting interrupted. and the better way was through the computer system. there was another story behind this story. in a nutshell, someone messed with my lap top to help, only to lock me out of my lap cos i dun remember the default password, only to result in me running from one place to another and to be told the password in 5 seconds, and after the kind person tried to crack the code throughout the night. ah well. and what is the whole point after this cock and bull story? all my bookmarks are in the computer domain and not in the computer system. so with no bookmarks whenever i log into the computer system in my room, i never did get onto their blogs to take a look. so basically, i am just lazy.
the second factor is, that i have been pretty caught up in school work. or rather, i have been half caught up in WORRYING about school work, and the other half attempting at some ineffective studying, which in turn infuriates me, and leaves me fuming at myself for the rest of my waking moments. so, no time to read blogs.
the third factor was, that i have been sick for a very, very long time. much time was spent in bed, being drowsy, visitng dr victor loh 4 times, getting a chest x-ray done, and simply just being sick and down and angry and frustrated and yadda yadda yadda. well, i am glad to announce that i have recently recovered. the "official" day of recovery was on sunday, when i went for a run with the guys, only to finish it like super dead last. made me realise how much impact the illness has caused to my cardiovascular system. and how much the rest of the people have improved.
the fourth factor was, that i have been busy doing all sort of unnecessary things! like photocopy coursepacks and notes and books. yes, books. books which are nicely binded but whose pages are still warm and crisp and nicely sitting on the top of my shelf, untouched, unflipped, unviolated. why? cos they have absolutely NOTHING to do with my curriculum. these are books of purely personal interest, and by reading them not only has no positive contribution to my goal of 4.5, but are in fact rather detrimental to my academic health. yes. i am dumb. yes. i am stupid. but oh, i missed photocopying already. and yes. i am sick sick sick in the mind.
the fifth factor was, i have been busy moving into the room, and enriching it with all sort of food, snacks, books, paper, clothes, and whatever you would dream of if only you had totaly independence and that you have your own house, and you want to make it your dream loft. yes. i was busy going out to places like clementi and ikea sourcing for ideas, and actually going about window shopping, with one question in my mind when i look at niceties: do i need this? and then my left hemisphere and my right hemisphere would collaborate and come up with all sorts of reason why i should and why i should not get this nicety. and then my brain would fight with my heart about whether i should think twice about getting this nicety, and then my heart and my hands would fight again as i take out my wallet in a split second to fish out cash to purchase the nicety. and now the nicety is nicely in my room. and if you repeat this above process like about 20 to 30 times a day, you would then realise where all my time was going to.
yes, yes, yes. this is the third week of school, a nice warm, throughly enjoyed wednesday. i have a tutorial tomorrow and another on friday, and a paper submission on friday. wow. and then, i am here blogging my time away. and then i wonder, what the hell am i doing here at all???? and then i would realise that i should try to dissociate myself with blogs altogether and concentrate on my work.
ahh, the intricate complexities and contradictions of life pervades my every being, my every moment, my every day. now i only wonder what else can i do to waste my time away? as a big '4.5' stares right into my face.
i wonder.
hmmm..
to think i had just complained to you last night.
thanks though for lightening my burden.
thanks again too..
sometimes, getting away from all the monotony helps. ;)