hey peepz! its me again at 10 am on the nation's birthday. so here's a great big 40th happy birthday to my homeland.
i am actually very happy and thankful that i live in singapore. guess, national education did work on me after all. after all, i do support the PAP, NS, and indeed national education inculcation in the young. we all know what the effects of propaganda is on the young. look at germany under the reign of hitler. at least, we can be sure, that the "singapore" brand of propaganda aint leading us to wage war and the such. of course, all this history and heritage teaching aint perfect, and leaves a lot to be desired. but at least, we can safely say, that they are pretty much beneficial, if not innocuous.
anyway, will be going home for dinner since it is a holiday. but will be lugging some of my readings home to be completed for tomorrow "making of a nation" tutorial (hm).
went to see the doctor AGAIN yesterday. its a wonder how come everytime i visit the YIH, i always seem to be seeing Dr Victor Loh. but its good, cos its consistent. and so, off i trooped to my FOURTH visit in 3 weeks. i was thinking while sitting in the waiting room, that if i dun get well by this thurday, it would be my 1 month anniversary of me being sick. hm. or its it 3 weeks? i dunno. either way, its been way too long. and i am sick of being sick. i am even sick of complaining here that i am sick. the worries started to creep in again. got a little teary eyed imagining the possibilities of tuberculosis, or lung cancer and that sort of wild imagination crap.
i can get pretty paranoid, really. but dun worry people, its really just all in my head.
anyway, so the doctor decided to give me something new, besides the usual procodin syrup and lozenges (which i have already completed 2 courses of). its a Flixonase aqueous nasal spray! and some tablets of runny nose. he thinks my nose is the problem now. probably too much dust, cause some allergic reaction and the cough. so i took it back to my room and tried it last night. what i had to do, was to stick it up my nose and press to induce a spray that goes up to the back of my nose. it was pretty uncomfortable and it went to the back of my nose, and trickled down to my throat. so i pretty much tasted it as well. it aint sweet that's for sure. so i had to down a couple of mouthfuls of water to clear the horrid taste. ah well. don't think its working yet, cos i am still coughing right now. but i read the disclaimer: take for a few days first, cos it may take some time to take effect. ah well.
hope it will work this time.
and so cos i had to see the doctor, i opted not to go for my retest. because i really saw no point in me taking. i dun think i am as strong as yoke hian, who managed to pass splendidly despite being sick. i was convinced that i would fail the run anyway, and probably do worse. ah well. at night, i was quite glad to hear from alex that he passed the run, and so did yanming. gm also passed his pull ups, cos he fell short of just 1 the last time round. guess that leaves me as the only guy who failed the run. ah well. ha ha! its okay. i am all right with that fact. no need for consolations. its just that i feel, that no amount of excuses, sickness included can justify my dismal performance. in the atheletic world, you have to be the top of your game when the time comes. when the test comes, you either pass it or you fail it. no one has the luxury or the mood to entertain my whimsy complaints.
was thinking of just doing some "semi-retiring" like just tie myself to my bed to prevent me from going for any training, until i fully recover. i never seem to recover in time for the next training, and end up going for the training anyway, only to make my sickness worse. if my sickness were to prolong for a month more (choy!), and it means i have to not train for a month, and thus not able to take part in the next race, then so be it. races are just races i guess. the next one will come. if i am not fit for this one, then i will train until i am fit for the next. it is not a big deal. what's more important for me, is that i be fit enough to train with the team who i care for.
sigh. well, its just a thought. so dun mince too much on my words. but its a scary thought for me. let me be himbotic for a while. for all those muscles i trained so hard for, they are wasting away as i speak! 3 weeks of not training is super super super detrimental to overal fitness and physique. hiaz. i should just freeze myself in cryogenics.
anyway, so yesterday concluded my first day in school. had two lectures. one history and one on public administration. so far, i dun really have a good impression of the lecturers. the best so far is dr krippa. but she's in IR. this sem is PA sem. sigh. but one good thing, is i made a few friends. more like acquaintances for now. one guy in particular, called gabriel. interesting fellow. you see, there are 4 of us (newly acquainted friends) who decided to come together to compile our coursepack because our lecturer is too lazy to do it for us. so we split the workload and headed off to find the materials. and as i was zapping my part, gabriel coincidentally appeared. looks like i am not the only "enthu" student around. so we were zapping our stuff at adjacent photocopy machines, and we struck up some interesting conversations. you know, small talk. but it was the ease at which we were talking to each other that struck me. you know, sometimes, people can get kinda shy when they first meet, wary of revealing too much about themselves. but we both hit off quite well. actually what qualified that statement for me was the fact that his mom is a supervisor at GNC, and he offered to get me stuff at 35% discount! anytime anywhere! OMG! when i heard it, i thought i hit black gold. imagine! 35% discount for anything at GNC! ah hahahahaha!
okay. sorry. when gm or alex sees this, i can so imagine what they will say: the auntie in me has resurfaced. ha ha! but hey! there was a Popular sale at bras basah that ended last sunday, which i was aware of, and i had to plant myself in my room to prevent me from going! so proud of myself. but when yoke told me that TIMES had a warehouse sale at expo that some night, i felt like jumping of the building. ok ok, thats a tad too exaggerated. but i mean, hey! how could i have NOT known that there was a bookstore warehouse sale??? and NOT go??? looks like i have been deprived of the papers for too long. sigh... sigh... sigh...
okay. anyway, so i hope i could meet new friends in political science, cos i really dun have that many friends in PS. its always good to create a network in your field of study. no, i would say its critical to create a network of friends in your field of study. especially, in NUS, cos we dun get regular classmates due to the modular system. we always change classmates from module to module. so i hope to know more people!
okie. i blogged for a good 40 minutes. and the prodin syrup is making me drowsy again and i havent cleared up my room, or read my readings.. or...zzz
i am actually very happy and thankful that i live in singapore. guess, national education did work on me after all. after all, i do support the PAP, NS, and indeed national education inculcation in the young. we all know what the effects of propaganda is on the young. look at germany under the reign of hitler. at least, we can be sure, that the "singapore" brand of propaganda aint leading us to wage war and the such. of course, all this history and heritage teaching aint perfect, and leaves a lot to be desired. but at least, we can safely say, that they are pretty much beneficial, if not innocuous.
anyway, will be going home for dinner since it is a holiday. but will be lugging some of my readings home to be completed for tomorrow "making of a nation" tutorial (hm).
went to see the doctor AGAIN yesterday. its a wonder how come everytime i visit the YIH, i always seem to be seeing Dr Victor Loh. but its good, cos its consistent. and so, off i trooped to my FOURTH visit in 3 weeks. i was thinking while sitting in the waiting room, that if i dun get well by this thurday, it would be my 1 month anniversary of me being sick. hm. or its it 3 weeks? i dunno. either way, its been way too long. and i am sick of being sick. i am even sick of complaining here that i am sick. the worries started to creep in again. got a little teary eyed imagining the possibilities of tuberculosis, or lung cancer and that sort of wild imagination crap.
i can get pretty paranoid, really. but dun worry people, its really just all in my head.
anyway, so the doctor decided to give me something new, besides the usual procodin syrup and lozenges (which i have already completed 2 courses of). its a Flixonase aqueous nasal spray! and some tablets of runny nose. he thinks my nose is the problem now. probably too much dust, cause some allergic reaction and the cough. so i took it back to my room and tried it last night. what i had to do, was to stick it up my nose and press to induce a spray that goes up to the back of my nose. it was pretty uncomfortable and it went to the back of my nose, and trickled down to my throat. so i pretty much tasted it as well. it aint sweet that's for sure. so i had to down a couple of mouthfuls of water to clear the horrid taste. ah well. don't think its working yet, cos i am still coughing right now. but i read the disclaimer: take for a few days first, cos it may take some time to take effect. ah well.
hope it will work this time.
and so cos i had to see the doctor, i opted not to go for my retest. because i really saw no point in me taking. i dun think i am as strong as yoke hian, who managed to pass splendidly despite being sick. i was convinced that i would fail the run anyway, and probably do worse. ah well. at night, i was quite glad to hear from alex that he passed the run, and so did yanming. gm also passed his pull ups, cos he fell short of just 1 the last time round. guess that leaves me as the only guy who failed the run. ah well. ha ha! its okay. i am all right with that fact. no need for consolations. its just that i feel, that no amount of excuses, sickness included can justify my dismal performance. in the atheletic world, you have to be the top of your game when the time comes. when the test comes, you either pass it or you fail it. no one has the luxury or the mood to entertain my whimsy complaints.
was thinking of just doing some "semi-retiring" like just tie myself to my bed to prevent me from going for any training, until i fully recover. i never seem to recover in time for the next training, and end up going for the training anyway, only to make my sickness worse. if my sickness were to prolong for a month more (choy!), and it means i have to not train for a month, and thus not able to take part in the next race, then so be it. races are just races i guess. the next one will come. if i am not fit for this one, then i will train until i am fit for the next. it is not a big deal. what's more important for me, is that i be fit enough to train with the team who i care for.
sigh. well, its just a thought. so dun mince too much on my words. but its a scary thought for me. let me be himbotic for a while. for all those muscles i trained so hard for, they are wasting away as i speak! 3 weeks of not training is super super super detrimental to overal fitness and physique. hiaz. i should just freeze myself in cryogenics.
anyway, so yesterday concluded my first day in school. had two lectures. one history and one on public administration. so far, i dun really have a good impression of the lecturers. the best so far is dr krippa. but she's in IR. this sem is PA sem. sigh. but one good thing, is i made a few friends. more like acquaintances for now. one guy in particular, called gabriel. interesting fellow. you see, there are 4 of us (newly acquainted friends) who decided to come together to compile our coursepack because our lecturer is too lazy to do it for us. so we split the workload and headed off to find the materials. and as i was zapping my part, gabriel coincidentally appeared. looks like i am not the only "enthu" student around. so we were zapping our stuff at adjacent photocopy machines, and we struck up some interesting conversations. you know, small talk. but it was the ease at which we were talking to each other that struck me. you know, sometimes, people can get kinda shy when they first meet, wary of revealing too much about themselves. but we both hit off quite well. actually what qualified that statement for me was the fact that his mom is a supervisor at GNC, and he offered to get me stuff at 35% discount! anytime anywhere! OMG! when i heard it, i thought i hit black gold. imagine! 35% discount for anything at GNC! ah hahahahaha!
okay. sorry. when gm or alex sees this, i can so imagine what they will say: the auntie in me has resurfaced. ha ha! but hey! there was a Popular sale at bras basah that ended last sunday, which i was aware of, and i had to plant myself in my room to prevent me from going! so proud of myself. but when yoke told me that TIMES had a warehouse sale at expo that some night, i felt like jumping of the building. ok ok, thats a tad too exaggerated. but i mean, hey! how could i have NOT known that there was a bookstore warehouse sale??? and NOT go??? looks like i have been deprived of the papers for too long. sigh... sigh... sigh...
okay. anyway, so i hope i could meet new friends in political science, cos i really dun have that many friends in PS. its always good to create a network in your field of study. no, i would say its critical to create a network of friends in your field of study. especially, in NUS, cos we dun get regular classmates due to the modular system. we always change classmates from module to module. so i hope to know more people!
okie. i blogged for a good 40 minutes. and the prodin syrup is making me drowsy again and i havent cleared up my room, or read my readings.. or...zzz