im still alive. but barely. HT is submitted. really think i screwed it up. but lets not go there anymore. I'd be glad (and lucky) if I got a B. hiaz.
still have a 100% essay to do. so rushing this. its on NGOs in Japan with regards to foreign migrants. there is so much discrimination going on there towards Filipinos, Nikkeijins, Iranians, women and men. why is there so much discrimination in this world? the idealist would wish the world was beautiful. the pragmatist would say its not practical. can there be an idealistic pragmatist and a pragmatic idealist? east is east and west west and never the twain shall meet?
ah, so many things happening at the same time. yet nothing much is happening. ah. beautiful paradoxes.
am planning, and thinking far ahead. somehow, im losing grip of present reality, of deadlines and exams. perhaps only cos i feel better that way.
i know i havent been home for a super duper long time. my friends chide me for that. and i usually laugh it off. I always feel, its not as if I love my family any less. Sometimes, in fact, I do wish i was home (idealistically), only circumstances make me stay and do work in the library (pragmatic choices). still, somehow, I can't wait to move back home. yet, i can bear to live this room i've carved a nice nest out of for myself. ah more paradoxes.
just quick updates with what else have been happening.
laptop fan crashed. on April's Fools. just after HT and before i started my next essay. spent a day trying to keep calm. i tried to get it fixed at IBM centre at science. but they wont accept it, cos the warranty has expired. to send it IBM at Changi would take two weeks. Im telling you. God was definitely playing a practical joke on me. and boy was it not funny.
Luckily, Darren was so kind as to help me get it fixed at less time and less cost! and Jul, darling Jul was so so so so kind (and only since she's not using hers as she has graduated) as to lend me her laptop. that helped me tide the crisis a little. so i have to so thank her!!! thanks jul!!!
i got it back last night. it worked perfectly. then this morning, it broke down again. so had to call up darren again. went out to meet him. he teststed it at the mrt, and it was spoilt. so he brought it to sim lim. and i went back to school to work. so tired by that time. then he messaged to tell me it was working perfectly again at sim lim. O_o. I think there is some electromagnetic field in my room that prevents my lap top from not working. and its working now. herm... maybe it would crash again tomorrow. choy!
Treated best buddy, Kwang Pang Haw dinner last night after work. he got angry with me for broaching on a taboo subject. sorry!!! must give public apology. if not he will beat my fat tummy. =P
went to the dentist. to check up on the crowning. in the end, he found ANOTHER decaying tooth. now its on the right side of the jaw, due to the ex-wisdom teeth's impact. in case you dun know, the molar on the LEFT side of my jaw went through a series of dental visits for root canal extraction for the final crowning. hiaz. and he also had to get rid of the years of accumulated stains from coffee on the inside of my teeth. he was saying it was very "gao" and he sure was not very gentle. :( but he got them all out. and now the inside of my teeth is very white. i was telling my friend, if i opened my mouth in a tunnel, i could light up the passage way.
just a few questions i've been wandering.
what would you do if you knew your relationship was going to end (for an indefinite, unknown period of time), would you still pursue it?
would your parents forgive you for every sin you commit?
why does only Kwang Haw offer to take photos of me?
why do people who refuse to take photos like to put up photos of themselves?
why do people who like to take photos don't?
why is Japanese so discriminatory?
now that the warranty for my lap top is over, and my lap top is failing on me, should i consider getting a working one before going to japan?
do people who find me in japan in the future, only want to get free accommodation?
how can i finish my essay in the quickest time possible?
if i laid on my deathbed, would i have lived a satisfied and satisfactory life?
why am i so not prolific in my political writings? when all i do is whine about my daily life?
why do some like to walk past, while some others pop in?
why do some say i've "lost heart in paddling" when i've decided to retire from the school team?
how am i going to move back home?
should i take up the internship at civil service college?
when can i work at Kinokuniya? or Borders?
where am i going to get the money for a vacation in germany?
how can i make the people around me smile?
still have a 100% essay to do. so rushing this. its on NGOs in Japan with regards to foreign migrants. there is so much discrimination going on there towards Filipinos, Nikkeijins, Iranians, women and men. why is there so much discrimination in this world? the idealist would wish the world was beautiful. the pragmatist would say its not practical. can there be an idealistic pragmatist and a pragmatic idealist? east is east and west west and never the twain shall meet?
ah, so many things happening at the same time. yet nothing much is happening. ah. beautiful paradoxes.
am planning, and thinking far ahead. somehow, im losing grip of present reality, of deadlines and exams. perhaps only cos i feel better that way.
i know i havent been home for a super duper long time. my friends chide me for that. and i usually laugh it off. I always feel, its not as if I love my family any less. Sometimes, in fact, I do wish i was home (idealistically), only circumstances make me stay and do work in the library (pragmatic choices). still, somehow, I can't wait to move back home. yet, i can bear to live this room i've carved a nice nest out of for myself. ah more paradoxes.
just quick updates with what else have been happening.
laptop fan crashed. on April's Fools. just after HT and before i started my next essay. spent a day trying to keep calm. i tried to get it fixed at IBM centre at science. but they wont accept it, cos the warranty has expired. to send it IBM at Changi would take two weeks. Im telling you. God was definitely playing a practical joke on me. and boy was it not funny.
Luckily, Darren was so kind as to help me get it fixed at less time and less cost! and Jul, darling Jul was so so so so kind (and only since she's not using hers as she has graduated) as to lend me her laptop. that helped me tide the crisis a little. so i have to so thank her!!! thanks jul!!!
i got it back last night. it worked perfectly. then this morning, it broke down again. so had to call up darren again. went out to meet him. he teststed it at the mrt, and it was spoilt. so he brought it to sim lim. and i went back to school to work. so tired by that time. then he messaged to tell me it was working perfectly again at sim lim. O_o. I think there is some electromagnetic field in my room that prevents my lap top from not working. and its working now. herm... maybe it would crash again tomorrow. choy!
Treated best buddy, Kwang Pang Haw dinner last night after work. he got angry with me for broaching on a taboo subject. sorry!!! must give public apology. if not he will beat my fat tummy. =P
went to the dentist. to check up on the crowning. in the end, he found ANOTHER decaying tooth. now its on the right side of the jaw, due to the ex-wisdom teeth's impact. in case you dun know, the molar on the LEFT side of my jaw went through a series of dental visits for root canal extraction for the final crowning. hiaz. and he also had to get rid of the years of accumulated stains from coffee on the inside of my teeth. he was saying it was very "gao" and he sure was not very gentle. :( but he got them all out. and now the inside of my teeth is very white. i was telling my friend, if i opened my mouth in a tunnel, i could light up the passage way.
just a few questions i've been wandering.
what would you do if you knew your relationship was going to end (for an indefinite, unknown period of time), would you still pursue it?
would your parents forgive you for every sin you commit?
why does only Kwang Haw offer to take photos of me?
why do people who refuse to take photos like to put up photos of themselves?
why do people who like to take photos don't?
why is Japanese so discriminatory?
now that the warranty for my lap top is over, and my lap top is failing on me, should i consider getting a working one before going to japan?
do people who find me in japan in the future, only want to get free accommodation?
how can i finish my essay in the quickest time possible?
if i laid on my deathbed, would i have lived a satisfied and satisfactory life?
why am i so not prolific in my political writings? when all i do is whine about my daily life?
why do some like to walk past, while some others pop in?
why do some say i've "lost heart in paddling" when i've decided to retire from the school team?
how am i going to move back home?
should i take up the internship at civil service college?
when can i work at Kinokuniya? or Borders?
where am i going to get the money for a vacation in germany?
how can i make the people around me smile?