hey peepz! yes i am still awake. but not because i was studying my ass off. i was doing a research that required me to talk about a new technology / invention that popped out of laboratories within the last 6 months. As i am a techno-idiot and am kinda of anti-science ever since secondary school (and esp. since the physics test, i have sworn off physics), i could not understand most of the articles, some like personal fabrication (har?), hybrid technology (har?). so in the end, i opted for something thats closer to the heart. or rather to the balls. literally. i chose an article on a "sperm magnet" that could cure infertility.
i chose that because its bio, and i understand bio better than i do physics or "cold, hard technology." i am afterall a living, organic being, and not a mechanical monster. actually i dun really know why i chose it. probably cos its 1 in the morning, i am tired from training, and desperate for sleep.
however, the article got me thinking. infertility eh? and then i wondered what it means to be infertile. what if i am infertile? well, its kinda of a really personal issue i guess. i know for sure i dun have erectile dysfunction. but that may or may not mean i am biologically fertile right? unless i have impregnated any of the last 100 non-existent women i ever slept with. what if i got married and want kids, and when i am like 30 or 40, realise for the first time (yes, i am a virgin, and want to remain one until i marry thank you very much) that i cannot produce kids. oh dear. thats like a daunting thought (and even if i do ever infringe the no pre-marital sex rule, i definitely do not want to impregnate her). so at the end of the day, my question is how do i know i am fertile or not? how do i know i am a gun shooting empty bullets?
okay. i am rambling. i guess when 20 years down the road of marriage and trying it for everynight for 20 years, and my wife and i still dun have a child, i guess it would be safe then to conclude that i am probably infertile. haha!!!
ah well, just pray i can do a better job with this round of presentation i guess. okay. night!
i chose that because its bio, and i understand bio better than i do physics or "cold, hard technology." i am afterall a living, organic being, and not a mechanical monster. actually i dun really know why i chose it. probably cos its 1 in the morning, i am tired from training, and desperate for sleep.
however, the article got me thinking. infertility eh? and then i wondered what it means to be infertile. what if i am infertile? well, its kinda of a really personal issue i guess. i know for sure i dun have erectile dysfunction. but that may or may not mean i am biologically fertile right? unless i have impregnated any of the last 100 non-existent women i ever slept with. what if i got married and want kids, and when i am like 30 or 40, realise for the first time (yes, i am a virgin, and want to remain one until i marry thank you very much) that i cannot produce kids. oh dear. thats like a daunting thought (and even if i do ever infringe the no pre-marital sex rule, i definitely do not want to impregnate her). so at the end of the day, my question is how do i know i am fertile or not? how do i know i am a gun shooting empty bullets?
okay. i am rambling. i guess when 20 years down the road of marriage and trying it for everynight for 20 years, and my wife and i still dun have a child, i guess it would be safe then to conclude that i am probably infertile. haha!!!
ah well, just pray i can do a better job with this round of presentation i guess. okay. night!