okay. i am not supposed to make this entry tonight at 1230 in the morning. no i am not mugging, contrary to what everybody thinks i am doing. i am doing a draft for paper 3 for tomorrow's conference of which i have a strange feeling its going to end up like paper 2 again. the fear, the trepidation, the horror. sigh. half way. think i am going to have to last to 4 again this morning. wish me luck.
so many things can happen in a few days. i am emotionally sapped, mentally drained, physically stressed. sigh.
i am trying to cope with the exam stress, and gm was kind enough to share his room with me, let me use his lap top, let me sleep on his bed, lent me his toothpaste. awww... so sweet. it only made me realise how much i need and want a room all for myself. well, thanks again gm. it was so kind of you to accomodate my selfish desires. there need more kind, happy go lucky souls in these world like you.
i got scolded for being an insensitive jerk. i got bashed for being a selfish bastard. sigh. i am. i admit. and i am trying to change. some of you guys may not see it, but only those who know me well enough are kind enough to point out my flaws.
i realise how may great friends i have with me. many i have distanced away, but many i have gained. i should not bewail those i have lost, but instead pause the thank all those i have gained. so here goes. first up, many thanks to pq for putting up with all my nonsense. he's the main reason why i am in db in the first place, if he did not persuade me to stay, even though i know the reason is really to accompany him, but it did not discount the fact that i had an epiphany on the first day that led to my decision to commit myslef to db. i have known him for 5 close to 6 years now. gosh, has it been that long? hm. well, here's a special thanks for being here.
second, its alvin chow kiat. he's one of my best friends from ns, and has been chatting and encouraging me throughout this entire sem. he's corny jokes are one of a kind. we enjoyed it so much. i know he wants me to convert, but i have constantly be eluding him. been eluding god. but he never gives up. thanks.
third, its yao. another great friend from ns. even though we stopped dancing, i enjoyed all the lindy hop sessions, and all the chats back home. hope see play pool with him and mark after the exams.
fourth is eileen. that girl has always been a constant source of worry for me. cos i know she is not studying, but somewhere out there netballing, roving, or singing in the church choir. i enjoyed her chats and her company. really want her to do well for the exams, cos i lent her my textbook.
fifth, is the db guys, especially riesal, guomin, archi melvin, jason, noel, wintson, ah fu, teddy, stanly, james, xiangyi and the seniors all provided me with a social life i never had, a reminder of male friendships reminicent of ns.
sixth, darryl. i dun think he knows this blog, but ah well. he's been around since usp camp, and has been around ever since. see him almost everyday cos we take 4 out of 5 modules together. we know each other's academic life in and out. esp for the writing module, which we bitch about all the time. i think right now, he's also doing the paper 3 draft. he's been another kind soul to let me sleep over in his room, and to share notes and the write notes for me when i deliberately skip class. although he keeps teasing me about me being in rj and being smart and all, we get the same grades. so either you are as smart as me, brudder, or i am as dumb as you.
last but not least alex. my best study mate, always so considerate. although he always bitches, and whines and complains, he's there at my most stressful moments, my most depressing days, and most frustrating times. being able to see him and study with him everyday for provided me with an emotional anchor point, a regulairity and a reference point in my constant navigating through the dangerous waters of university.
yup. there you go. this is practically my social life. of course, i must never discount the little moments i have had with people like kaiyong, hock, stephen, JW, liza, bryan, mark, ZX YX and merv (!!!!), as well, as bobby, lihui, zhihong, ailing, winnie, and the girl with the blond hair and english accent and red laptop in ps class. well, thanks and thanks again all. if i missed out any of you. please reply in my blog to bash me up. cos i really am running out of time and need to start on my essay. haha!!!
lesson of the day: the lap top is not necessary but it is REALLY helpful, especially when doing essays.
so many things can happen in a few days. i am emotionally sapped, mentally drained, physically stressed. sigh.
i am trying to cope with the exam stress, and gm was kind enough to share his room with me, let me use his lap top, let me sleep on his bed, lent me his toothpaste. awww... so sweet. it only made me realise how much i need and want a room all for myself. well, thanks again gm. it was so kind of you to accomodate my selfish desires. there need more kind, happy go lucky souls in these world like you.
i got scolded for being an insensitive jerk. i got bashed for being a selfish bastard. sigh. i am. i admit. and i am trying to change. some of you guys may not see it, but only those who know me well enough are kind enough to point out my flaws.
i realise how may great friends i have with me. many i have distanced away, but many i have gained. i should not bewail those i have lost, but instead pause the thank all those i have gained. so here goes. first up, many thanks to pq for putting up with all my nonsense. he's the main reason why i am in db in the first place, if he did not persuade me to stay, even though i know the reason is really to accompany him, but it did not discount the fact that i had an epiphany on the first day that led to my decision to commit myslef to db. i have known him for 5 close to 6 years now. gosh, has it been that long? hm. well, here's a special thanks for being here.
second, its alvin chow kiat. he's one of my best friends from ns, and has been chatting and encouraging me throughout this entire sem. he's corny jokes are one of a kind. we enjoyed it so much. i know he wants me to convert, but i have constantly be eluding him. been eluding god. but he never gives up. thanks.
third, its yao. another great friend from ns. even though we stopped dancing, i enjoyed all the lindy hop sessions, and all the chats back home. hope see play pool with him and mark after the exams.
fourth is eileen. that girl has always been a constant source of worry for me. cos i know she is not studying, but somewhere out there netballing, roving, or singing in the church choir. i enjoyed her chats and her company. really want her to do well for the exams, cos i lent her my textbook.
fifth, is the db guys, especially riesal, guomin, archi melvin, jason, noel, wintson, ah fu, teddy, stanly, james, xiangyi and the seniors all provided me with a social life i never had, a reminder of male friendships reminicent of ns.
sixth, darryl. i dun think he knows this blog, but ah well. he's been around since usp camp, and has been around ever since. see him almost everyday cos we take 4 out of 5 modules together. we know each other's academic life in and out. esp for the writing module, which we bitch about all the time. i think right now, he's also doing the paper 3 draft. he's been another kind soul to let me sleep over in his room, and to share notes and the write notes for me when i deliberately skip class. although he keeps teasing me about me being in rj and being smart and all, we get the same grades. so either you are as smart as me, brudder, or i am as dumb as you.
last but not least alex. my best study mate, always so considerate. although he always bitches, and whines and complains, he's there at my most stressful moments, my most depressing days, and most frustrating times. being able to see him and study with him everyday for provided me with an emotional anchor point, a regulairity and a reference point in my constant navigating through the dangerous waters of university.
yup. there you go. this is practically my social life. of course, i must never discount the little moments i have had with people like kaiyong, hock, stephen, JW, liza, bryan, mark, ZX YX and merv (!!!!), as well, as bobby, lihui, zhihong, ailing, winnie, and the girl with the blond hair and english accent and red laptop in ps class. well, thanks and thanks again all. if i missed out any of you. please reply in my blog to bash me up. cos i really am running out of time and need to start on my essay. haha!!!
lesson of the day: the lap top is not necessary but it is REALLY helpful, especially when doing essays.