yes! i am down to simply editing my essays. like finally. i am so going to finish my essays by tonight. so i feel a little excited, jumped the gun and decided to do a little blogging before actual completion.
still the pressure to start revision is there. i need to really start.

went for db training again. its the last training before regatta. was hoping it was going to be a great day to be a morale booster before the competition. in the end, we din really beat safsa, and went on par with ngee ann. its a little disappoiting. maybe its just me. thought my newly bought aqua shoes would make all the difference. sigh. felt so tired. so lethergic. the race day better, better be better. no it will be the best. that is if my revision is done by then. haha!!

sometimes, there are these days i feel that everything i do is wrong, and everything i do causes more inconveniences to the people around me. there are days when i just feel so low. question my existence, question my being. its not a really a spiritual inquiry. its just one of those day i feel worthless, cant contribute positively to my environment. i am not making them happy. i am just making them frustrated. these are the days i feel i am just a mere cockroach. a pest. a menace. i feel so pressurized to perform and yet no knows i am here. its just a crushing feeling. that's all. but then i used to get them for long periods of time in secondary school. i learn to appreciate myself. call it delusion if you want. it works. i learn to carry on living. i learn to carry on learning. its what you call life. see. i feel better about myself already.

my sister likes liang jing ru. using her laptop. listening to her songs. i am beginning to like her to.

lesson of the day: macdonalds fries get soggy really fast.