finally started to clear my room. messy. messy. messy. all over the floor. all over the bed. i think i will have to sleep on the couch. haha! its interesting how much notes i have amassed over the course of one sem. its quite scary. realised i never read one-quater of them. so why did i even bother? oh right. the security i derive from the knowledge that i have notes. stupid.

went out with my mom to go window shopping, my mom's favourite livlihood. was hoping to sponge off my mom actually. but in that 5 hours of walking, my mom was the only one buying things. even though she agreed to pay for me, she set limits: the shirts of my choice must be below 20 dollars. i mean like, erm... the nice shirts are all above 30 dollars. hell, even the ugly ones were above 30... i just walked around in continual dismal. i wanted to buy a cap from nike.. but my mom refused. saying we have so many caps at home. yes mom, all the ones that publicise the SAF. no way i am going to be caught dead wearing them. ah. that's why i prefer shopping alone. no one to critcise or stop me from buying stuff.

wanted to play pool with ZX last night. but he had a rehearsal for his church for christmas. said he was tired. the poor chap. giving his life so much for christ and the church. invited me to watch. told me to get merv and yx too. i could just imagine. beautiful show.. and then the preaching starts. yes, give your life to god! and have eternal life... and that sort of stuff. had it once. scared me out of my wits. wonder whats the effect like 6 years after should it reoccur.

have i said before that i felt i lost my friends who give themselves to god? no? i say it now. i feel sometimes i lost my friends who have decided to give themselves to god. sometimes, i feel they have gotten so holy and their heads are in heaven, and not on earth. they are happier. but not because of me. i have friends who refuse to love anyone not a christian. does that qualify for bigamy? or religious discrimination? hm. i wonder.

sun yan zi's latest album is da bomb. its great. she's great. i recommend you get it. dun burn it. support our star! buy her album! and you get a sun yan zi xiao3 bei4 xin1!!! its a cute, tiny singlet with her name imprinted on it. i am glad my sis bought it... now i am just playing it on continuous mode on my player. milu milu...

just "passed" my driving evaluation yesterday. my instructor was scolding me all the way. i feel so sad. its my supposedly last lesson, and i still drive like a drunk driver. my instructor said i drive "dangerous". sigh. all my friends assured me that i should be able to pass on my first try. ZX said all men can do it. its the whole men Vs women driving thing. he said its "instinctive" and "natural" for all men to be able to drive well.. i was like.. okie.. i.. am.. a.. woman.. then... argh! the agony. i simply cant multitask. i cant steer a bend while changing from gear 2 to 3 while checking my blind spot... its just too much... i want to pass on my first try.. but i dun want to die in my first accident. oh. and the only day i can book for my driving test is the very day i have to go for my NS reservist recall briefing. i think its a sign. i cannot drive... i should not drive... and god is doing everything to prevent me from reaching that goal... maybe at least until i convert. then if i die in a horrible car crash, at least i go heaven.

oh one more thing. i am just amazed at the technology of underwear... while i was walking around.. i went to see if i needed some briefs.. i thought g-string was outrageous... now its made of "micro-fibres" ie... holes... for breathability i guess. but i was kinda surprised... netted underwear.... its like half naked.. and g string is like already half naked.. so that makes it one-quater naked... haha!!! oh dear.. the industry is doing everything to make underwears as "little" as possible, providing maximum exposure, with at least a minimum support. its quite funny. and a female assistant was opening boxes to show her male colleague the underwears... he was mildly surprised. she was playing with it. hm... i felt quite uneasy at how people talk about skimpy guys underwear so liberally. but i must admit.. the material was quite silky. i was imagining its comfort. then i thought it was kinda kinky. haha!! but i cant have them.. my mom, would like scream... and question me in front of the family what a triagular peice of cloth with two strings was supposed to be. imagine the embarassment.