ganbatene, baka inu
its deepavali eve! totally lost track of time. thought there was going to be a ps lecture tomorrow. was kinda hit into rememberance by the strong wafts of indians in the mrt. dun mean to be racist here, but i mean, it was like woah! there were so many indians, in the mrt, i thought the lights went out. i mean, there were sooo many indians i din think a fly could have survived the smell. i mean there were soooooooooo many indians. okay. i should stop. but really, there were so many...

db regatta is this big race. and its happening on the 20 and 21. my exams on the 23. hiaz. well. i was really hoping to just be in the mixed team, but my name was found on both the inter varsity and men's open team. i was a little surprised. and a little disappointed. where's my mixed team?? i want to row with the girls! haha!!! in any case, i have to prep myself up then. damn. have not been training for 5 days now.. alex says i have gotten fat. come to think of it, my six packs disappeared! argh!!!

but my main concern is really the response i have gotten from some of my friends. some of them are not rowing, cos they have papers and such. i am not really clear with everybody's details, but generally those who were not selected, were quite disappointed. its really sad, that should anyone have put in so much effort and dedication, and not be allowed to row. that's injustice. maybe there are reasons. i dunno. i dun know what to make of this situation. the fact is i am rowing myself, so i do feel as emotionally acutely as them. but i get the picture. i have been there myself. i am sure we all have. but i just know, i wont just quit or stop my dedication there and then. look at my paper 2. my prof made me right again. and i continued to put in the effort. okay, as usual, my analogy is inappropriate but i am sure you get the idea. right? right? sigh.

i just hope that whatever happens, selected or unselected, win or lose, rain or shine, we, as dragonboaters will continue to strive and work hard. its a goal that's up there, way way up there. and that's what makes the challenge all the more worthwhile. and if we do win, makes the victory oh so sweet. if i am not rowing now, i will want to row next sem. if not next sem, the next next sem. that's the idea of meritocracy right? that's how our society works right? i will complain till the cows come home. but after i realise i am left all alone in the fields, with no more cows to bitch to, i, too will walk my way back.

i got one more essay about my favourite politician, machiavelli. and one more, if and only if, mr nerney does not change my thesis for paper 3. i think i put in a decent effort. i will put in more effort if he does not throw my paper out the window! oh god! please!!! please!!! please!!!

ok. now i am sounding desperate. wait. i AM desperate. and stressed and pressurized and about the blow up. no. kiddin. i may scream and complain and all, but i will get over it all. we all will. whether we like it or not, the days will come and they will go. so lets just make the best out of it all shall we?

lesson of the day: wear a belt when your pants are larger than your waist size.
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