so here i am, talking and chatting to alex, yao and jingwen. i am so happy. cos they represent my still but barely existing social life. these are the people who keep me sane, who keep me contented, who keep me appreciative.

today, db training was so tough. sprints, weights, pull ups... all designed to push us to the max. that's why i like db. its like ns. they pushed me and pushed my limits. i love the adrenaline rush, of feeling alive, of feeling accomplished, of feeling grown and progressed. life is not sedantary, its a challenge to be been seeked out, and challenged against. i love it.

tony is such a great motivator. reminds me of my friends who never gave up on me. tony's a strong character and has admirable achievements. i hope to achieve the same standards of commitment as he has.

that's why i must never give up on myself. i have faults, but i am changing. i know it is going to take a long time, but i will continue to strive.

at the same time, having three essays due in one week is WAY too much! i feel i can handle it, but i am not confident i can handle them well. the B- for the writing module really dealt a crushing blow to my belief in my own capabilities.

heh. life is just that, nothing but work and training. but i like it... at least for now... i dun want it to end too soon.