i have been super impatient, super insensitive, super greedy. i have been asking for too much from myself. creating all these fantasies with no clue if they might come true or not.
we just came to a stage when we can call oursleves close, yet circumstances bid us distance. i guess this is normal. this is part and parcel of it all. i must have the emotional maturity and resilience to handle such challenges. i may miss it all, for a while, but i guess when we meet, the wait is worth it. to try to understand you better, to try for us to reach a higher level of intellectual and emotional econnection. to try to search for the friendship and love we hope to achieve from each other.
there is still so much to do, so much to say. but i must be patient. i promised to experience it all slowly. this is a good chance to slow things down. we cannot ask too much to fast. pacin you said. three stages. i pray we can get through this.and we will. i promise.