sigh. i am actually in my room before the clock strikes 11. usually i would be in school studying or doing work. but i have decided to retire early because i know i am falling sick. for sure. because i was feeling cold and the cough just kept leaping out of my throat. so now as i am slowly sucking my lozenges before taking my bath, i will post another blog in my sickened stupor.
did not really accomplish much today. went through my essay, confident that i had already gotten all the information i need. all i needed was to arrange it. furthermore, i had written my outline at 2 am last night. or so i thought. when i read everything again, what went through my mind was "how the hell did i write such incoherent, nonsensical crap?!!" i realised that my outline was no outline at all. i was disgusted with my work. disgusted with myself. lesson learnt: do not, i repeat, do do work anytime past 12. its not me i guess. i am definitely not the night owl like gm who can last till 6 in the morning. furthermore, i am very susceptible to illness should i have less than 8 hours of sleep the night before. last night, i had 5 hours, which in my context, is way, way, way below requirement for effective sanity. so no wonder i was falling sick.
anyway, so before i went through my outline, i was happily in the library doing what i love best: photocopy notes. yes. sorry, but i have a perverse pleasure in photocopying notes, whether or not i read them, whether or not i utilize the information. i know it sounds insane. i only meant to photocopy a few articles. but i realised that three quarters of the book could be useful. so i decided to save myself the need to waste energy in being discriminate in my information, i decided to just zap the entire book. yes. i flouted the photocopy laws... but i could not help it. it was... so... fun.... Anyway, i found out that i saved 80% of the cost should i buy the book itself found in the bookshop. bwahaha!!!! i am perverted and i am insane.
yeah, and so, anyway, i spent the rest of the afternoon redoing my outline. so far in total i have 4 drafts of outlines. and i only just started doing the actual typing of the essay. yea... and the essay needs to be edited at least 3 times... which requires ... hmm... A LOT more time. of course, i am not your prolific, coherent writer. i learnt that the essay MUST die, die be edited and proof read a few times, to qualify as a piece of university writing. of course, this is just my own expectations and guidelines. i know a lot who can rattle off flawless, smooth arguments off the top of their heads. well, i cant. so i have to put in more effort.
also, today was open house. so i decided to take a look around. i pretended to be one of them jc students and took one of the goodie bags! muahaha!!! i feel to evil. the nice girl handing out the bags was like "so, welcome! are you coming in this year? which faculty do you want to go to? do you need any help? info?" i was kinda guilty and embarassed. and promptly just replied "i am just looking" and walked away. haha!!! anyway, i do not regret taking the bag. my favourite item was this bounded A4 book by singtel. din really care about the vouchers though. you should know that i have (another) perverse pleasure with papers. do you start to see the link?? haha!!! oh, by the way, i am a bibliophile, which means i love books. actually, i can generalise myself as a paper-phile. haha!!!! love anything paper. notebooks, bounded ones in particular!!! haha!!! if i were rich, i would go to book binders and buy em notebooks!!! haha!!! they are so nice. but i would think them so nice that i won't bear to use them!!! haha!!! i am so full of contradictions.
so what is the conclusion from all the above banter? i am perverted, insane, paper-chasing (?! double meaning!!! haha!) and really really cheapskate. infact, when i was in coop buying some foods, i bought this bag of tapioca chips without giving it much thought simply because it was on sale!!! 20 cents cheaper.
i think when i re read this later i will be very embarassed about it. haha!!! anyway, hope that my words have brought everyone some cheer anyway!
seems like my lozenges have finally melted away. and so i shall bathe and turn in early! good nitez peez!
did not really accomplish much today. went through my essay, confident that i had already gotten all the information i need. all i needed was to arrange it. furthermore, i had written my outline at 2 am last night. or so i thought. when i read everything again, what went through my mind was "how the hell did i write such incoherent, nonsensical crap?!!" i realised that my outline was no outline at all. i was disgusted with my work. disgusted with myself. lesson learnt: do not, i repeat, do do work anytime past 12. its not me i guess. i am definitely not the night owl like gm who can last till 6 in the morning. furthermore, i am very susceptible to illness should i have less than 8 hours of sleep the night before. last night, i had 5 hours, which in my context, is way, way, way below requirement for effective sanity. so no wonder i was falling sick.
anyway, so before i went through my outline, i was happily in the library doing what i love best: photocopy notes. yes. sorry, but i have a perverse pleasure in photocopying notes, whether or not i read them, whether or not i utilize the information. i know it sounds insane. i only meant to photocopy a few articles. but i realised that three quarters of the book could be useful. so i decided to save myself the need to waste energy in being discriminate in my information, i decided to just zap the entire book. yes. i flouted the photocopy laws... but i could not help it. it was... so... fun.... Anyway, i found out that i saved 80% of the cost should i buy the book itself found in the bookshop. bwahaha!!!! i am perverted and i am insane.
yeah, and so, anyway, i spent the rest of the afternoon redoing my outline. so far in total i have 4 drafts of outlines. and i only just started doing the actual typing of the essay. yea... and the essay needs to be edited at least 3 times... which requires ... hmm... A LOT more time. of course, i am not your prolific, coherent writer. i learnt that the essay MUST die, die be edited and proof read a few times, to qualify as a piece of university writing. of course, this is just my own expectations and guidelines. i know a lot who can rattle off flawless, smooth arguments off the top of their heads. well, i cant. so i have to put in more effort.
also, today was open house. so i decided to take a look around. i pretended to be one of them jc students and took one of the goodie bags! muahaha!!! i feel to evil. the nice girl handing out the bags was like "so, welcome! are you coming in this year? which faculty do you want to go to? do you need any help? info?" i was kinda guilty and embarassed. and promptly just replied "i am just looking" and walked away. haha!!! anyway, i do not regret taking the bag. my favourite item was this bounded A4 book by singtel. din really care about the vouchers though. you should know that i have (another) perverse pleasure with papers. do you start to see the link?? haha!!! oh, by the way, i am a bibliophile, which means i love books. actually, i can generalise myself as a paper-phile. haha!!!! love anything paper. notebooks, bounded ones in particular!!! haha!!! if i were rich, i would go to book binders and buy em notebooks!!! haha!!! they are so nice. but i would think them so nice that i won't bear to use them!!! haha!!! i am so full of contradictions.
so what is the conclusion from all the above banter? i am perverted, insane, paper-chasing (?! double meaning!!! haha!) and really really cheapskate. infact, when i was in coop buying some foods, i bought this bag of tapioca chips without giving it much thought simply because it was on sale!!! 20 cents cheaper.
i think when i re read this later i will be very embarassed about it. haha!!! anyway, hope that my words have brought everyone some cheer anyway!
seems like my lozenges have finally melted away. and so i shall bathe and turn in early! good nitez peez!