someone scolded me insensitive. again. sigh.

anyway, i am still limping. the pain in the heel has gone (the original pain). but because i was walkin on the balls of my feet the whole day, it has strained muscles in the other parts of the feet. now, i am experience pain from muscle strain. sigh.

oh how i wish, i could laugh without constraints. how i could life without thoughts. just lie in my bed all by myself all day. listening to settled life, listening to quiet passing.

as i was typing this entry, two girls from crusade approached me at where i am sitting, and started to do what all good christians do. ah well. i have had great friends trying to share the joy.
there are one so many times, i felt i needed to surrender myself to something. some spiritual being. but i could not decide which religion i was most inclined to. over the last year, i find myself understanding the faith little by little. i am not afraid to admit, that i am beginning to accept christianity little by little. but there are a few obstacles, a few chains, blocking me and holding me back. all i know, is that if i want to submit myself to christ, i have to do a few things first, settle a few issues. but i have to do a few things first.

all i know, is that its not right now. but i do hope, sometime in the future, i may be able to experience some spiritual release.

until then, its time to get back to earth, and study for my psychology test!!!